1M is in and Most amazing CS ever

The 1M of Gadolinium Phos came in the mail, but I'm going to wait to take it due to the CS session I had earlier today. The details are extremely intimate, so I won't go into them here. But I will say there was some crying involved, and a major release of...umm... something. The rest of the day I had all kinds of detoxing/stuff coming out symptoms. Nausea, headaches...and now it feels like I took an Excedrin! That funky Tylenol/caffeine sensation I would always get after taking them.. so maybe it's coming out!! WHOOHOO! So I'm going to go to bed early, and let my body continue to do it's thing, and tomorrow I'll take the 1M (<--that's my own assessment.. going on intuition here)

Bringing it back in

Today was better. Still have an enormous 'to do' list, but at least it's all written down so I don't have to hold it in my head. I also had a massage today... which felt wonderful and helped ground me a bit more.

I read back to my April 2011 posting where I had my first 'sulphur burps' episode so I could get a better idea of things when I go see Dr. Allen in the morning... and then a session with Linda right after!

Derek kicked my butt all royal yesterday, and good heavens am I sore today. I asked for it, though. No.. literally.. I asked for it... or at least for him to kick my butt. And he did just that. I'm wondering if my platelets effect my muscles rebuilding themselves... I hope I'm not damaging my body because it can't heal fast enough. Ugh. Something I should look into....

There's dancing tomorrow, but I'm not going to be able to make it; I can already tell. Too much to do, and need to get ready for Singer Kommerz (leaving EARLY Friday morning).

Here we go with March Madness, as per usual. Singer Kommerz, musical rehearsal, musical, more musical, and then Disneyland. And then it's April. :) And I'll be 28. Now THAT'S madness, for sure.

Yup... definitely not grounded

I just read through my list of things that are ungrounding.. yeah... I've been doing almost all of them. o.O This will definitely explain why I'm feeling like crap and having a hard time getting anything done (I AM cleaning my room, at least)
Look at this madness: sedentary activities (me sitting for work and at home), watching TV (I do this in the kitchen while making food), being indoors for extended periods, driving in heavy traffic (DAILY), stress, being around ungrounded people (my students...daily), mean-spirited remarks/anger (again..my students), negative daydreaming (bad habit, which I'm at least more aware of), cursing, loud noises (my students, AGAIN), procrastinating, mess/cluttered living space (my room and car)

And I found this check list:
Have you...
Exercised
Been outside
Laughed
Enjoyed God
Been hugged
Made sure room is clean


I'm going to write that down on my white board... along with my list of mini to-dos. There are SO many little things that need to get done, I think their presents is stressing me and taking up mental space. I need to write them all down, and then get them done and out of my life.

Waaaaay off this whole week

I'm not sure if the mass exodus of all things bodily internal last week really threw me or what, but this entire week I have been off, and can't seem to find my footing. :P  I found myself not wanting to teach anymore, and not happy in general. Dancing on Friday wasn't as fun as it normally has been (caught myself doing my 'oh I'm not pretty' thing and trying to toss a pity party... though I managed to actually catch myself and stop, for the most part (and I still had fun, all in all)). And today I feel like something is wrong... which could just be cause my period is coming. But I also felt/feel like I didn't get rid of EVERYTHING that need to get out last week... whatever IT is, I'm not sure. Did I say this already? My room needs to be cleaned too, and I KNOW that contributes to my being ungrounded, for sure. And I haven' exercised all week.... AND have been eating too much. Wow.. Okay.. no wonder I feel like crap.
Re-dosing the Phos. helped a little bit for a day... I recall having a cool dream, but didn't write it down, as usual. *facepalm*
I made the Ibuprofen 12X and have taken it three times. Not sure if it did anything.. maybe it's contributing to my funk? New bruises on my legs and one I got from knocking my knee on a gasoline pump indicate my count has STILL gone nowhere. AAAAHHHHH!!!! I want platelets!!!! Is it too much to ask!?!?! I feel like my brain is slowly dying.... like I'm getting dumber. And I can't recover as quickly from working out.  What's missing?!?!! WHAT DO I NEED TO DO!?!?! People say they live just fine with a low count, and I used to think that too....but I'm starting to feel like that's not quite right. Yes, you can survive just fine with a low count. But it's not normal! Something is STILL WRONG! And I don't want that! I want things to be RIGHT. BAH! This is outragiously frustrating. My two year anniversary since being diagnosed is coming up in less than a month. March 16th (which happens to be Carver Arts Night..and the musical... (Yes.. it's going to be a looong day)). Two years of platelets below 30. Maybe I need to do another fast since it seems we can't figure out what's blocking the hpathy. *sigh*sigh*sigh*
Okay... rant over.

HPathy Plan of Action

Tonight: redose Phos. (because of all the fluid loss from the other night..among other things).
Then make a remedy for Ibuprofen... take that 3 nights in the row and see what happens.
Currently I'm ordering Gadolinium Phos. 1M.

Still weak and slightly nauseated... and having some stomach acid (which is QUITE unusual).
Crazy tired. Time to sleep.

Platelet check

Got my count checked (I LOVE that I don't need a doctor to order labs any more...That's SO awesome to me. HEHEH! Thanks Patti for that little gem!)
25.
*sigh*
There was a note in the email that the results were abnormal and needed to talk to my doctor immediately about it. Hahaha. If only they knew the half of it. :)

Great weekend...ended with a bang!

The faculty retreat was quite a sucess. We were up north, by the coast.... BEAUTIFUL. The house we were in was about a 5 min walk from the ocean, and 10 min walk to the pool (hehehe). We arrived Friday night (yes, I got car sick....the roads got VERY twisty, and I was in a van.. bad combination). We played some games and then went to bed. Quite surprisingly, I was one of the first ones up! (6:30....with no alarm!). So I put on my swim suit and walked to the pool.. swam for half an hour, stretched in the sauna, and returned to make breakfast. Oh yes.... I made Green Glop, and it was a total hit. Mwahahah!
Then I taught them a round called "I have a million nightingales." By the end of the weekend, they all had it down pretty well and were singing it randomly on their own. :)
We discussed the master schedule and plans/dreams for the future... along with building camaraderie. That night I had to make a big salad for myself, since everyone was eating ravioli. :P And drinking LOTS of wine. I tell you what, that made for a VERY interesting night. LOTS of singing happening then..hehehehe. I started getting sleepy quite early (around 9), and in retrospect, should have gone to bed.... but little did I know what was about to happen.
At some point in the middle of the night (we finally started getting to bed around 11:30), I woke up with terrible gas, feeling the need to vomit. I got up quitely as to not disturb my sleeping roommates and sat on the toliet... unproductive. A few hours later, I had to get up again.... and this time got rid of more than just gas. :) Then again some time later I had to get up... and AGAIN another hour later. Needless to say, I didn't make it for my morning swim. I finally got up around 8:30 and ate a banana and odwalla bar for breakfast, feeling slightly better but still so-so.
Lunch was another large salad, and then we packed up and hit the road. I slept more in the car, which was a life savior for the twisting road. We stopped to eat, where I just had some watermellon and another odwalla bar. By this point I started burping a sulpher/bad egg tasting flavor. And the last time that happened, bad things followed.
By the time I got dropped off at my car, I knew I needed to sit on the toliet. Thankfully I managed to make it home just fine, but man was I hurting.
To sum up the rest of the night:
Poop, poop, puke, puke, poop, poop, poop, poop. By the end it was all water. Sooooo uncomfortable. At 4:30am I woke up, pooped more water, and decided I should try to eat something solid. Thankfully the piece of toast and banana stayed down. I'm doing MUCH better now as I write this, though still feel weak... and unfortunately need to go to German choir... We only have two rehearsals till the Singerkommerst. 
At first I thought the gas in the night was caused by too much fruit... but fruit would NEVER do that. Clearly, there was something foreign that needed excivating. And a part of my feels like not all of it got out. I could still taste a hint of that sulpher taste when I ate at 4:30. Hmmmm.
And then mom informs me that I had these bad egg burps when I was a baby.....
AND I ate an odwalla bar, which usually gives me stinky gas... and it hasn't done a thing now. Interesting..... very interesting....  I was thinking something was wrong with my g.i track... so maybe this just confirms it? I have no idea.
I need to study for music history tomorrow. :P Listening quiz. Goodness I don't want to do anything but sleep and rest. World, can you stop for a moment please?

Sleep apnea?....

Okay...so I forgot that I do this. Odd..to forget that you stop breathing sometimes when you sleep is silly..and to forget to tell your doctor is even more so. I guess I haven't noticed in a while. But on Wednesday, while I was resting on the massage table afterward, I kept stop breathing and would gasp for air. And I noticed I was doing it last night as well. I don't think I'm snoring...but of course, I can't be for sure. It feels like my breath just get's shallower and shallower until it's nothing at all.
And this morning I am tired tired tired. I also didn't take my pred-water-mix last night, so maybe that also has something to do with it? But how long do I need to keep that up for?

Thank goodness it's Friday! Dancing tonight!!! :D

Butternut Pie

AND NOW!!!!

Ladies and Gentlemen.....

Butternut Pie
The crust:
1 cup almonds
1 cup cashews
1 cup pumpkin seeds
1-2 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp vanilla

5 dates
2 tbsp honey
1 tbsp coconut oil

*Blend nuts in food processor till powdery. Then throw in the rest and blend.  Mash into a pie pan (after lightly coating with coconut oil)


The filling:
1 butternut squash
1 cup cashews
1 cup water

5 dates
1/4 cup honey
2 tsp vanilla
1 tbsp pumpkin pie spice
1 tsp cinnamon
a PINCH of salt

*In a high powered blender, blend everything EXCEPT the squash till smooth. Bake the squash at 400o for 40 min, let sit and cool just a bit, then spoon into blender and blend with the creamy mixture. Use the plunger to get it mixed well and creamy.
Pour into crust and bake at 400o for 20 min.

LET IT COOL! (If you serve it hot, be aware that it won't hold like a pie. But once it's in the fridge and cooled, it's hard)
Serve as is, or with a dollop of yogurt....and a pinch of cinnamon.

Life is good

First off, I am all kinds of outragiously sore..and it is absolutely delightful. Derek had me screaming and grunting and growling in the gym. I even had to dump water on my head.... it was intense to the next level. Now I know how they feel on The Biggest Looser. :)

My freshmen class is definitely better. I still need to get a better grasp on what to teach, but at least I have a little more method to my madness this go around. Though I am noticing a small problem...and that's that the other kids who already took the class inform the new ones, but I'm changing it up... so they're expecting what the other guys did. Tough!

Dancing again tomorrow!!!! :D  I went to Target today and got a skirt and three shirts. They're fantasticly cute, and great for teaching in as well!! I am totally loving my wardrobe... SO different from what is used to be.

Alright lung..get with it

Today I had a quick check up with my doctor... come to find out..my right lung is functioning quite as well as the left. Huh. That was a new one on me. I told him about how I cough up crap after (and during) laughing, so he prescribed more laughing for me. Hehehe. We'll do another check up to see how my lungs are doing next week. I'm suppose to continue my exercise (Derek kicked my butt hard core...I mean HARD core today) and do deep, belly breathing. The real task is remembering to do it. Oy!

I forgot to take my Pred-200C-In-Water last night, and didn't sleep well. So ALL day today I was just a zombie. That didn't help with my new freshmen class, but I was able to keep it together. Sill have no idea what to do *eye roll*.

I also found out today that I CAN go dancing this Friday. That's one for the win, right there.

Running theme after good times

I finally slept better last night! Aaahhhhhhh. I should get in the habit of jotting down my dreams when I wake up, cause I know it was something cool.... but can't remember what now. :P But I digress....
Today, my chest has that tight, coughing up crap feeling (without the coughing...sort of). This is the SAME exact thing that happened after New Years. Interesting.... Spend the night laughing and enjoying myself, and the next day I feel all this crap in my chest. Vvveeerrrrryyyy interesting. So CLEARLY, I need to go out and have more fun to get rid of all of this. Makes perfect sense to me!

Tomorrow is the anti-Superbowl Party.... but I don't think I'm going to make it; there is just TOO much I need to do still (I wonder if I should take a dose of Carsinosin...cause I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed). Besides study for 110B, I need to get ready to teach my freshmen class. (Here we go again!!!) It's great for me to have all the freshmen over the course of the year..so that way I get to know all of them, and them me, and I recruit people for choir. But at the same time, I REALLY need a beginning choir. Maybe I can have three classes next year! Heheheheh. :) What we really need to do is go to some festivals and win/get some awards to start decorating the class with... and that'll help with funding, I'm sure. :) First things first: get ready to sing on Valentines Day, and then have an end of the year concert (and sing at graduation).

But before all that!..... Dinner. :)

Got the swing back!

I just returned home from a fabulously fun night of swing dancing. Wow! Just incredible! The last time I went was.....err..... 7 years ago? And I was a very different person back then. I remember feeling sorry for myself cause I felt fat and ugly and why would any guy want to dance with me? This time I felt beautiful, and confident, and I had no problem extending my hand to the nearest man and asking to dance (though that didn't happen often cause Cody was with me.) But it was a total hoot! Cody had a great time as well (he also had a bad experience last time). We started off the night only knowing the basics...and ended with a plethora of moves. As soon as the lesson was over and the music started, I saw a guy across the room who was AWESOME, and just hanging out...so I grabbed Cody and ran over to him and asked if he could show us some stuff. And he did. And it was amazing. And again, later in the evening, I asked some other awesome guy to show us some stuff...and he was even better!! I foresee myself going there many many many many more times. Well worth the cost. Now to just get a good dancing skirt and a good pair of shoes!
Wow is it WAY past bed time!
Speaking of which, my dream last night was a normal, fun and exciting one...though I can't quite remember.. but Dr. Who stuff was in it (maybe cause I was watching it earlier in the day...hehehe).

HA! My hands smell like 'guy'  :) --Amused.

Muuuuch better!

Today was indeed a MUCH better day. Far more pleasent mood, and more energy. And sleep was a bit better as well (even got up before my alarm!). My dreams are still a little funky, but I can only imagine they'll improve as well. Here's to HPathy! :D Now if only I wasn't on my period..then things could be GREAT. But hey... that'll come soon enough.

Tomorrow is DANCING! Whoohoo! My livingsocial deal was about to expire, so that put a fire under me on to get some people and go! And Cody is going, so I'll have someone to dance with! Now my only problem is figuring out what to wear......... no really...... it's a problem....... heheheh

Curve the symptoms

So I've been outrageously tired the past few weeks.... most likely because I'm sleeping terribly... and to boot, have NO energy. Okay...well.. not 'NO' energy, but low. I'm still going to gym everyday (had a fabulous workout with Derek today). But on the whole, very...low....energy. On Tuesday, walking back to my car from class, I just wanted to fall over in the middle of the path and just give up in a heap of exhaustion. (Yes.. clearly that is exaggerating).
So we're thinking that's the Pred still working.... and to help that, I mixed up the 200C in some water (shaken and poured 12X) to take a sip of at night, and then the Phos 1M mixed in water to help give me a boost in the day. Let's see how it works! Aunty Erma came to visit today....so that won't help anything (especially sleep), however...I am thoroughly impressed that she came on time! WHOA! That rarely happens. Rarely..... Rare.Ly.

In 5 more days, I can eat fruit again. MWAHAHAH. And also my 9th graders start again. :P