My trainer...ROCKS!

Today was the start of week three with my trainer (and that also means only one more week of no fruit! WHEEE!. He worked me over.....in an odd sort of not really working me over way.... if that makes any sense. At any rate, boy oh boy do I feel it in my arms! Phew!!! I don't think I can stretch enough. :) It feels good.
Along the same lines, but gross.. my farts have been just teeeerrrrrrrible! SO BAD. They stink a few hours after eating an egg.... after eating fish... and almost immediately after eating walnuts and grapes (which I keep forgetting). I have NO idea why. And right now it seems like no matter what I eat, they're bad (which is a sign of my period on it's way... again, NO clue as to why).

I bought a 6 mouth gold membership on livestrong.com, so I could print out my meals and info for Derek. It's cool..and nice not to have adds! Plus... I get this!:


Hehehehehe. Fun. :) (The current goal is 125lbs. I'm at 143 right now.... which is where I was exactly a year ago. *sigh* The constant battle. Thank goodness I have Derek in my arsenal this time around.. He's my secret weapon.)

Sore throat, but no virus it seems

By Friday morning, that sick-sore throat feeling had passed for sure. But then I saw Linda and we worked on supporting the whole bringing stuff up and out thing, and shortly after our session, I got that feeling again.. and it's come and go over the past few days (currently, it's here).
I got a few nicks shaving today...and they took quite a while to stop bleeding. :'(  The bruise on my leg isn't healing as fast as I was hoping it would. It really feels like my count is still nowhere. UUGGHH! I don't want to waste a CBC, cause between the bruise's slow healing, lightheadedness (still), and long bleeding... I'd say it's the same.
And my mood just is NOT stable. I suppose it's all inward, too. I'm bright and bubbly around people, and do genuinely enjoy myself...but as soon as I'm alone it varies greatly. Some days I'm doing totally great and feeling great, and other days (like today), I just feel lost.. I know what I need to do, but can't find the motivation/strength to do it. Maybe that's everyone's case. Ha! I want a companion so badly right now (that also varies with the days). I want a man to cook for, to rub his shoulders after a long day of work, go on adventures with. *sigh* I'm turning 28 in two months, and have never had a boyfriend. I'm afraid I'll end up building it up so big, I'll only set myself up for major disappointment.

On a completely different note, Zoe and Jackson continue to bond. I showed Jax how to use the cat door...oh boy! That opened up a whole new world. Last night the two of them were playing outside...super cute!

Mood swing?..... odd.....

Today started out well. Woke up, made breakfast and prepared food for the rest of the day. Left for school a tad late and hit some traffic...and had to practically run to class...... But besides that, just fine. But for some reason, as soon as I sat down and was chatting with my friends next to me, I realized I was moody..... very moody. Like I wasn't even myself..... And tired. Oh goodness tired. And not all together there mentally. Oh wait.... that sounds like PREDNISONE!!! I rrreeeeeeaaaalllly hope that's what's going on.... though it seems a little late in the game to be experiencing that (since I took the 200C a week ago), but I have no idea. I just know I feel weird, and I'm exceedingly sleepy (still haven't slept well).
I have a slight cough and my chest feels just a little bit tight. (I started coughing last night... very light).
I don't like feeling like this. :( Things were going so well mood wise. I hope this doesn't last.

Sick? Perhaps not...

Woke up with slightly swollen tonsils... and by mid day my throat felt like I was getting sick.. and then later it dropped a little into my chest. But now, as I write, it doesn't feel like much of anything. I'm hoping that's just the Phos. doing it's thing and working from head to tow. 
The bruise on my leg seems better.... but that could be me hoping for it. I'll keep an eye out.
CRAZY tired. And my face is still twitching. :P

1st day of school and Twitch be gone!

Well it looks like my face might be done twitching... hopefully. It's still going a little bit. I just talked to April, and she recommend cell salt #8... so I'll do that.
Plus I'm redosing my Phos. 1M tonight. :) There's a nasty bruise on my right leg, and an even worse on on my back. DARK and knotted. Yuck.

Today was the first day of school. I was 30 min late to class. *faceplam* There were TWO accidents on the freeway, and bad traffic everywhere else. Man it was something else. But it was okay.... really helps that I'm good friends with the teacher.

Wow. Super tired. Still not sleeping well. I hope it's the 200C Pred. doing it's thing..and I hope it'll be done doing it's thing soon, cause I need some REAL sleep. Time to make that happen....

A few thoughts before I continue on the day...

1. I REALLY want to write a book about my ITP journey. I should do that before it gets any later...
2. I found a purple bruise on my leg and want to scream. (but it could be a good thing?....)
3. The muscle kitty corner to my left upper lip has been twitching for THREE DAYS. I'd like it to stop thank you very much...
4. I've lost 2 pounds this week (weighed and messured at the gym today). My trainer rocks.
5. It's raining! FINALLY! :)
6. One (that's a name) was in my dream last night... Haven't seen that guy in a loooong time! But then it turned out not to be him, but a friend of his... But at first, I think it was him. Or maybe he lied to me. Hehehehe.
7. Classes start this week. Oh boy..... Here we go! Not sure if I can get back into school mode, but I'm going to try! I want to graduate already!
8. Zoe and Jackson are getting along better and better as the days go by. And she seems more happy. I'm sure the treats help (I'm putting the hpathy worm medicine on them).
9. Not eating fruit is SSOOOO hard. I miss it. Boy do I miss it. Two more weeks to go! I can do it....

Light headed could be a good thing in this case....

The day after I took the 200C Pred., I noticed that I was getting VERY light headed.. far more than I normally do. And that was something that was going on at the beginning when my count was low.. Sooooo... maybe the 200C is doing something? The tingle in my achilles is still there (however do you spell that!?).. of course, it's only been..er.. a day? Two?

Exercise has been great. I did my circuit training at home..which worked out rather well if I do say so myself. Not eating fruit, however, is a real bummer and REALLY hard. (Also not eating any starchy carbs after lunch. Lots of veggies for me!) I ate an egg a few days ago...and it SEEMED to settle well, but then later that day I had the WORST smelling gas EVER.
And I tried eating fish again, and not only do my farts smell of fish, but there's a hint of it in my body odor! YUCK! I'm done trying to make Derek happy. I tried. It failed. I will just eat my greens and beans and quinoa and hemp, thank you very much. I also got a raw protein powder (made from greens and grains!) to help add the protein that he insists so much on me having. *eye roll* People just don't understand. Horses are MUSCULAR animals.. they don't eat meat! So meh! *raspberry*

Tomorrow I'm picking mom up. 3 hour drive one way. Joy. But I get to see my aunt and uncle and cousin... which is why I volunteered to go get her. :) So I'll be off early in the morning. Hopefully it won't be too rainy. (Thank GOODNESS it's raining! The plants and trees outside were looking rather confused on the whole weather situation)

200C!

ALL of my shipments came in today. Nice. Included in that was the Prednison 200C! So I took one. :)

Exercising has been fantastic and daily. Actually today I met with Derek, AND went for a walk later in the day! :D Go me.

Tonight was a rehearsal for Sunday, and I was just on top of it! I feel like it's the exercise... my brain feels more clear and present these past few days. I hope this awesomeness will carry over to playing at school, cause that's where I need it the most!

Sleepy! Time for bed!

Finished composing!

Woke up around 7:30 am. Went to Rudolph Steiner College to sing with the GWC falcuty. Everyone LOVED us.. and loved me. :) Heheheh. What can I say? I taught everyone the melody of "To Wonder..." and I was making everyone laugh doing my usual 'me' thing. *shrug*
Then hit the gym and did my 20 min walk.
Then got home and plopped myself down in front of the computer. 13.5 hours later, and I'm all done! Of course.. there were MANY breaks for food/bathroom/a few episodes of Young Hercules (cause I'm a total dork and on a nostalgia kick). Dang does it feel SO GOOD to be done with it and not have it in my brain any more. Aaahhhhh. Hurray for showers, too...cause that's when I got the idea for the melody. I was totally stuck, with nothing written and no real start (this is last night)....and whilst bathing myself, I thought of an old melody that I never used for anything and never went anywhere. BAM! That was the launching pad I needed, and man oh man did it skyrocket me.
Time for the sweet taste of BED!

Red spots suck

Red spots all over my chest. No 200C yet. And I'm feeling overwhelmed... I think I'll dose some Carsinosin.. it's been a while anyway.
And I broke down and bought another mouth guard. $50. OY! Since it didn't come today..and it's a holiday Monday. I just can't wait any more.
I'm not happy again.... really though, my moods seem to change constantly! I don't ever remember it being like this.... maybe it's residuals of the Prednisone? Or I'm just searching still....

Waiting for the mail

I've got a couple of things in the mail.. and they STILL haven't come yet. :P I've been waiting all week.
200C of Prednison antidote (hope that works, cause the 3 days of the 30X did nothing...or at least... seems like it. My legs still tingle).
Mouth guard
Health Poster
BAH! The mouth guard is HERE in the town, but hasn't arrived at my door. According to Amazon, it arrived yesterday.... but for whatever reason, it's hanging out at the post office. My goodness but I need it!! I've had a perpetual mild headache for the past 4 days cause I don't have it. UGH! Tomorrow I'll go pick it up myself.


I went to the gym yesterday and today and did a 20 min "walk". It's a FAST walk..and keeps my heart rate at about 150. My trainer saw me and texted me later in the day to say keep up the good work. :) That was nice. He's going to be good for me.


Dad got a new toy today for the cats.. it just hangs from the top of the door frame; a little fuzzy mouse thing on an elastic chord. The LOVE it.. and when they both play together, it looks like they're playing tether ball.

Change

A change is coming... I can feel it. Or maybe it's already here and happening slowly.... but something is happening, either way. My dream last night was incredible. It was so..different... almost like it was real..or someone else' dream. The man was different. He had long, dirty blond hair, and was more on the lanky side. I woke up around 4 (by the kittens (mainly Jackson)) and wrote it all down. It's hard to explain, and wouldn't come across right in words. It was intimate, I'll give you that much. The rest is for me and my journal. :)

Stella went to her new home today. She HATED the car ride. And then Jackson was a bit more whiny..looking for someone to play with. Zoe was in her normal hiding spot for most of the day, so I kept him loved... but it seems the two are now playing more tonight than they ever had. Hopefully that progress continues! And I hope Stella is enjoying her new adventure.

It's quite difficult for me to not think about wanting a companion....and longing for one.... But I need to keep reminding myself: before I can find him, I need to find me.
With that said, tomorrow is my first REAL day with Derick, my new trainer. :D Here we go!

Prednisone

Before I forget to blog it...
I took the antidote for Prednisone...30X. Three times (one dry dose for the past three nights). The tingle in my legs is still there. I really hope the 200 does the trick when it arrives! OY!

Goodbye to Stella

Stella and Zoe aren't quite getting along. Not to say they're fighting, but they aren't exactly playing.... Jackson, on the other hand, is more active with her. But unfortunately, Stella pulls his attention...so we're going to give her away. I feel SO heart broken about it for some reason. I think it's just the idea of pulling a brother and sister apart.... but if I put it into a bigger perspective, it isn't that bad. They won't remember each other after time passes on by. And Zoe will finally have a friend.... She's, dare I say it, been depressed (I think)... Watching them play and wanting to join them, but not really succeeding. She doesn't purr as much these days and is always growling and fussing at me. I hope this is the right move. Jackson will cry for her for a few days, I'm sure of it. :( Breaks my heart. *facepalm* I'm such a softy when it comes to cats. They all have to go at some point.. Better get used to it, Kate!!

Santa Rosa

I took a trip up to Santa Rosa to see Dr. Incredible before he left. It was a fantastic drive and a fantastic session, and he had a lot of invaluable advice. (Being there at the fasting center made me want to go back and do another round of fasting! *sigh*) I felt so good after my time with him, and felt like that was exactly what I needed. Now I have this 'antsy' feeling....like there's something I need to do now, but I'm not sure what it is exactly. When I got home, I immediately wanted to clean my room and get rid of a bunch of stuff and organize. I haven't finished that task yet, but it's definitely clean at least!
Taking that initial step out the door was hard, but I think it got the ball rolling. I'm always SAYING how I want to do this, or do that, but never DO. Just say. So this was the first time in quite I while that I DID. :) It took me forever to write that first email to him, and at first, he wasn't sure if he would have time and suggested a phone consult. But we worked it out for me to come, in the end (obviously). When I went to bed the night before I left, I couldn't believe I was actually going! And even in the morning I couldn't believe it..... and there was this small part of me that was saying, "WHOA! Wait! What's going on here?!" cause I had gotten SOOOO used to being at home. Anyway, the point to all that was the 'taking the first step.' It was the right one.


After our session, I told him I wanted to go on an adventure/hike somewhere, but wasn't sure where. He suggested this lake near by... and so I went and walked around for about 2 hours. Beau-ti-full! and relaxing. :) It felt great to finally get out and go on a little adventure. Here's some shots:

There was a trash can in this shot.... Oh yes.. I totally photoshoped it out. Bam.

 Silly Face Down Tuesday shot. I was SO out of breath..  the timer on the camera was not very long, and I had to climb those rocks FAST! -->

"[.....]
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost

Conquering the rocks!
 I found this little patch way off trail... at first I wasn't going to go, but then thought, 
"Well what kind of adventure is that if you just stay on the beaten path...."

An adventure for tomorrow!!!

Guess who I'm going to go see tomorrow?! Dr. Incredible! That's right! :D He's moving out of state, apparently, so I caught him just in time.
And then after that, I'll go visit my bay area buddies for a possible midnight sail and general hang out. Really though.. GREAT start to the year.
I'm SO excited... I think sleep won't come easy....hehehehe.

New Years 2012!

Before I forget...I made a homemade 12X antidote to Excedrine... not sure if it did anything, though it seemed like both times I took it, I got stomach acid minutes later. Interesting. No new bruises....so THAT'S good. The two spontaneous ones on my thigh are vanishing, albeit slowly..and nothing new appearing. But my legs are still tingly. :( I hope April get's back to me soon. I'm sure she's on break, and don't blame her. :)

I. JOINED. CALFIT! WHOOHOO! Mom got us a good deal.. and it's CHEAPER than last time. So far, I've gone every day. I'm getting my check soon from AAA for the accident, and I'm going to use some of that money to get a new trainer... and the rest to continue massages and cranialsacral.

Here's my "before" pic for the Dr. Furhman challenge:

New Years was one of the best this year. I hung out with a really good friend of mine and a BUNCH of his buddies. All gay. Hahahah. First time for me, being surrounded by gay men. But it was a BLAST. I haven't laughed that hard, for that long, in quite a while. It quite literally broke up a bunch of crap in my lungs and I've spent almost all day today coughing it up. Crazy. o.O  We played Apples to Apples, Twister, a GAINT jenga set (life size!), and some other game I don't remember the name of. Man good times!


My New Years goal:

• Get FIT
• Get PLATELETS

Simple. To the point. Attainable... which is what I named my blog, after all. :)

This is a pic of Stella. Passed out her her butt in one slipper, and face in the other. I thought it was a total riot. So far, Jackson is the one who's getting long better with Zoe, and actually plays her to to some degree... Zoe's the one who is having a hard time playing ...errr....well... softer, is a good word. She's a bit too rough with them, and they don't quite know how to handle it