Yikes is it cold in the house! Pheeewwwweeeee! But that doesn't have much to do with anything besides my current state of body temperature.
Today I played for two services. There was bad good there..and unfortunately, gave in. Now my stomach hurts. :P I diserve it. Wow so much sugar. Where did my resolve go!? Just because it wasn't helping my platelets doesn't mean that's the only thing. My goodness I feel SO much better when I don't eat crap. Ugh. I have issues...clearly.
Yesterday I made an antidote to Excedrine... Since it seems like something is blocking me.... I figured that was one of them, considering I used to take it like CANDY. I should re-dose the Prednistone too, but with a higher potency...which I don't have..... I should email April after the holiday.
This is my new goal:
I want to go....so......so....very.......badly. True story.
My Christmas wish did not come true. Platelets are 26.
Tomorrow I work all day (playing for two services). And Sunday morning. YAY money!
I forgot to mention that on Monday, after my session with Linda, my tailbone started hurting. o.O Not sure what that's about....Old stuff leaving? *shrug* It still hurts, albeit less than Monday.
Sweet potatoes are amazing. Especially cooked in a little coconut oil. :)
The weather has been a little bit warmer than normal, I think....and no rain yet, so it REALLY doesn't feel like the end of December. Plus the fact that I'm STILL working, and will be until Christmas day.
I got my CBC done today! Though I don't think anyone will be in the office tomorrow to tell me the results.... I spotted more random bruises. Ugh. Not sure I want to know.
No exercise yet. :( I'm having a hard time getting my life in order. I am SO late on my period too. 3 weeks currently. Clearly, I'm more stressed than I think I am. Well.. only one day left of teaching, and then I get a few weeks off. And then NO 7th PERIOD!!! For a month, at least.
Apparently moms legs have been cramping up too. At first I was thinking it was old things coming back.. but it might be more simple and be lack of potassium...since mom is experiencing the same thing (worse than me, in fact). I made a potato dish for dinner in response to said cramping. :)
I really need to stop blogging RIGHT before I want to go to be. I'm positive I could be more creative with my sentences if I did this earlier in the day. Ah well.... Time for bed.
Both my bottom wisdom teeth are angled toward the rest of my teeth. They aren't causing pain, nor are they coming in. They can't, really... they're both angled against my back molars. Anyway... the right one has caused some of the gum to pull away from my last tooth... so I have to clean it out every night. Kind of like MASSIVE flossing... with a pick. Apparently the root of the tooth is exposed, cause I scraped it. O.o Let me tell you.. that's not a feeling you want to feel everyday. Maybe once in your life.. maybe. Shocking. Literally. So I should go to the dentist before this gets worse. Most likely I need to get the wisdom tooth removed. The only problem is I don't really HAVE ENOUGH FREAKEN PLATELETS to have sugery!!!!! GGAARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! Just when I think they MIGHT be up a little, these bruises keep showing up...all dark and purple and disgusting. My CBC is waiting for me to pick it up. I'l go get it Monday, but I don't have much hope. :( I'm loosing steam here. I haven't lost ALL hope... but most of it.
My Christmas wish: Platelets...... And a camera. :)
In other news, our concert on Friday went MASHINGLY. :) Everyone was quite pleased, which makes me pleased. A happy principle and parents are ones that keep you hired.
And I STILL haven't started working out. *sigh**whimper* I need help.
So clearly, I've been out and about working...hence the lack of posts. The past two weeks have been nearly a gig every day. Tomorrow will be my last one for a while (not including Christmas)
My students are going to sing a set of 7 songs at the pot luck tomorrow night. Should be interesting! :D We're using mics as well. AND the piano is tuned!
I just watched a rather inspirational video on YouTube:
I sit FAR too much. I never really thought about it as being unhealthy in and of itself. Inspiring... Very inspiring. I keep SAYING I need to exercise, but haven't started yet! This is madness. Less talking, more doing. I feel like a part of me isn't ready for some stupid reason. Or maybe it's that a part of me doesn't think I actually can, so it struggles to even start. Or maybe it's cause I don't have much support (besides mom and Jess).... Everyone says the whole "love yourself" "you're BEAUTIFUL", etc etc. This is about HEALTH.... okay.. and looks, yes. But FAR more about health. I want to get out and DO stuff. I want to be able to go dancing for hours. To go on long, rigorous hikes through the mountains. I can't do these things right now, and it just kills me. How do I start!? BAH! *facepalm*
Period hasn't started yet.... so I still haven't gotten my blood checked. *eye roll*
My dream last night was very interesting.
One of my students hopped into my car and started the engine. I was furious with him. I mean.. who does that? So I was yelling and swearing, and in my heated state, I did something that was super human. I think I slammed open some doors (that where 20 feet away). He was surprised, as was I...and that kind of calmed me down. I went to the dean and explained that I needed to leave immediately cause there were going to be people after me now.
"I apparently have..mm... super hero like abilities." I told her, searching for a quick way out.
I jumped out the side window and started climbing up the walls of a nearby building, so I would have an aerial view and at least be off of the streets. But before I could really get anywhere, this woman I know (who is VERY clingy) finds me and keeps trying to pull me down. I couldn't climb fast enough... she was always RIGHT behind me. Her constant nagging and pulling really slowed me down, and before I could get out of sight, cops started showing up on the street below.
It was really frustrating by the end there. And I think it means that I'm being held back from reaching my potential.. or something along those lines. I've had other dreams but have been SO busy, never wrote them down. And now I don't remember them. :P Ah well. Speaking of dreams.. I should go make some. :)
Had a concert on Tuesday (orchestra)
Had a concert on Thursday (recital)
Had another concert today (another recital)
And tomorrow is BV's big 2 hour fund raiser concert..with a dress rehearsal in the morning.
Why yes.. yes it has been a long week.
Zoe
and Stella are currently playing in the kitchen. They're still getting
to know each other... It's slow, but it's happening. :) Jax is sleeping
and missing out on the fun, which might be a good thing. I think both of
them intemidate her.. but one at a time she can handle. :)
Bruises.
UGH! A new big one on my arm today. And a few on my legs (knees and
thigh) and one on my back (I recall hitting that at some point). :P
I
have a CBC ordered for me, but I want to wait till my period starts...
which SHOULD be any day now...but with my body, who knows!
No
German choir for the rest of the month.. or Sac State. WOW! I'm down to
THREE jobs for the next two weeks! That's AWESOME. :D Maybe I'll
actually come up with a curriculum!
I'm meeting with
the department chair next week to talk about graduating. I bumped into
him today and that reminded me to make an appointment.
My back is on fire these days from all the piano playing. I need to see my magical Marlies!
What. A. Weekend.
First off: I had a session with Linda, which was fabulous, as always. Then things just went down hill.
I had a student bloody another student in my 7th period class. I had NO idea what to do. I was furious, frustrated, and terrified all at once. Had to meet with the principle and parents. (The principle is an AMAZING woman and as cool as a cucumber). One of the moms was CRAZY and trying to threaten us. The other mom was ultra calm. It was just bizare.
I wanted to burst into tears nearly the whole time, but managed to wait till I got to my car (TWO HOURS later). Then just sobbed while talking to my mom.
Then Saturday the Germans sang for the opening of Kriskindelmart (not sure how to spell that). I walk into the room and they inform me there's no piano on stage... So then I have to hustle everyone to un-bury it so they'll have accompaniment. It would have been a disaster without a piano.
Then Sunday I get food poisoning or something close to it. Not as much throwing up as last time, but definitely the hardest vomiting session I've ever had. It just wouldn't quit! I swear I puked up part of my small intestine.
Today my stomach is still a bit sore, and I'm a little shaky and out of it.
On a good note, I got PAID! FINALLY! JUST in the nick of time too.
Busy week this week. I have a concert Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday.
I can already tell this winter break is not going to be long enough.... Not be a long shot.
