A bit of everything

Man I don't write here enough! Too much to recap now....

Let's see. I'm not playing at Waldorf any more.. it was all just too much. I had to let something go, and that was the one that was just too out of the way and didn't pay enough to compensate for that. PLUS I can now space out BV on the days that I don't go to Sac State. Really, it just makes everything better. :)

The hardest part about teaching, I've discovered (for myself, at any rate) is discipline. Yikes. I definitely don't have that down yet. Really, though.. everyone says I'm a great teacher, but honestly I wasn't ready. I had NO training at all. Sink or swim, and learn the hard way.. that's what I get now. Ha. I think I'm enjoying it..I think (haven't fully decided yet). However, I yearn to make REAL music with professionals the longer I work with these kids.

I'm struggling to get organized. I need to clean my room so badly, but once I get home I'm just SO mentally drained that I don't want to do anything. :P

The cold that I got last week is just about done... It never really amounted to anything in the first place, which is just fantastic for me, considering I used to get a cold for weeks upon weeks in my younger years.

I need to exercise. I need to go dancing. Somehow I need to find the time. This should be higher on the priority list than it is currently. I did push-ups tonight.. and hope to make that a nightly routine. (I had that going for a while about 5 years back. It was simple, and worked. Time to do it again). Managed 10 girly ones. *facepalm* It's a start, right?

I took a new hpathy (X-Ray) last week. I think it helped with my cold. But it was for my platelets...Not sure where my count is currently.... I'd guess 30s..maybe. I'll get a CBC tomorrow! It's been over two months.... which is the longest I've gone since being diagnosed (It went from every week to every month.. I guess now it's every two months. Heh)

The other night I dreamed I was a werewolf (along with two other people). I remember we went to some school and picked up this girl who didn't know she was one..but was about to find out for the first time cause there was a full moon. She, I, and I think my brother where in the back seat of a car.. I'm not sure where we were driving to, but the three of us started changing. I remember trying to fight it, but then looking out the window and seeing the moon.. and then it was filling my vision and I couldn't look away from it.. And this raw, wild, intense feeling was overwhelming me and I could feel myself start to turn into a wolf. I woke up before that actually happened, but for a good portion of that morning and into the afternoon I could still faintly sense that feeling. That sometimes happens with my dreams... a lingering feeling.

I also had another dream... but that's a little more on the R rated side. So. Heh. Yeah.

The colors of Autumn

Fall seems to be on it's way.. and I LOVE autumn. Hands down my favorite season. The energy in the air is so... vibrant. And it feels like anything is possible. I need to get out more and enjoy it! Soak it up before it's winter. California is notorious for autumn lasting..oh..a few weeks, and then the rest of the time it's a cold, raining winter.
This is a pic from our grapevine. Unfortunately, we had bugs that killed it for the most part. We got about 1/4 of what the crop should have been. Ugh. Mom found some natural spray...so we'll use that next year. Quite unfortunate. But the grapes that made it were tasty.

Sore throat! ACK!

Clearly, due to my lack of posting, I have been busy. That is the understatement of the century. Teaching is fun, but slightly exhausting... trying to keep kids in line, quite, and teach them all at the same time will wear you out right quick. But I think I can handle it.
Apparently, though, what I CAN'T handle is EVERYONE in the musical being sick, and hanging out with them backstage. Opening night one boy was sick, by the third show, two more were sick. By the next weekend ALL but two were sick. :P I'm surprised I wasn't included in that. However, I HAD been getting good, solid sleep every night for the past week (finally sleeping well!!! WHOO!), but last night I didn't get much. 1) The show ended at 11pm. I didn't get in bed till midnight, and then had to get up at 6:30am this morning. So that screwed with things. And 2) I had to wear my wrist guards cause my hands are hurting from all the piano playing. And then on top of bad/minimal sleep, the way of women is about to crash into me, and that messes with things immune wise. SO, now I find myself with a sore throat. I've made myself a green smooth with spinach, kale, zucchini, celery, cilantro, and strawberries. (Poured onto cantaloup and granola)... and am about to suck on some zinc. We'll see what becomes of this.
Thankfully, I don't have to work tomorrow morning (though that will end next week).

Tomorrow I'll see Dr. Allen for a check up about my back. It's better, though all this work is not helping, and it was starting to hurt again during the show tonight. :P Lame.

I called to get an order for a CBC, but they haven't called me back yet. Though it's pointless, cause I can tell by my ugly purple bruises that it has gone no where. Grrrrrrrrr. I had my little revelation about not loosing hope the last time I blogged.. so I'm hanging on to that as hard as I possibly can. I see these bruises though and just want to weep with frustration and scream wildly. What am I not doing!? What have I missed?!? There has to be something missing... shouldn't I be better by now? Or at least improved? Stagnate is where I'm at. Maybe because I'm not exercising?..... I'm stagnate with exercise, so my platelets are mirroring that. Wow.... okay.... I wonder if that's right... I just had another revelation JUST like the one last time.... same exact thing, but with the word "mirror." I know what that means... no one else does.... It has to do with my last session with Linda. Wow. Could that really be it? Hmmmmm. I wouldn't have any reason to say 'no, that's not right' because I haven't been exercising... not for a long time (in a solid, consistent way)...so there's no evidence to say otherwise. Something to think about for me, for sure. Thankfully the weather is improving (and by improving, I mean cooling off), so maybe I'll be more likely to go outside. If only I won't get sick now.....

There's LOTS more to blog about, but I need to go to bed early....sooo.. I'm going to do that instead. :)

Beyond busy bee

I guess I'll take a quite moment and update..since it's been over a week. :)
I have 7 jobs now. That's right. Seven. Accompanying Bella Vista, playing at Waldorf, directing the Germans, playing at the theater, playing at 1st cov, helping out with conducting lessons, and teaching music/choir at G.W.C. WHHEEEE!
G.W.C starts next week. :) I'm totally stoked, though I still need to make a silibus and figure out what I'm doing. (I have an idea)
And Waldorf starts the week after that (for me, at any rate).
And then we'll be in full swing! Phew! Hard working woman here! I work at least 20 hours a week now, which is FAR greater than it's ever been. Plus there's all the prep work and practicing. So it feels full time, to be sure.

The musical opens this Friday. It should be a good show.... some of the actors make me nervous with their lines (and lack of memorization), and even more so with the songs. I've exhausted my resources... there is nothing more I can do other than to pray and hope they get it together (I'm mainly thinking of one person in particular here)

I started eating my 'post hospital' way.. which is Dr. Furhman.. but gluten free. How long will I keep saying 'I need to loose weight' until it actually happens? We'll see. Being motivated and VERY busy might actually do the trick. :) That.. or backfire in my face.

My count isn't up.. I can tell from the red spots and bruises I still get. *sigh* I'm trying to keep hope, but it's slipping a little bit. Okay... as I typed that last sentence, I just remembered one of the things I learned at a CS session a few weeks okay. Wow. Crazy. I'm sitting here having a wild revelation of sorts. It's personal, so I won't indulge here... but I know what I'm talking about. :) Hehehe. Okay. Hope. Can't loose it. Or rather.. Keep it.
Speaking CS sessions, my last one was, as always, fabulous. This time I came away with:
Dance. :) I've been wanting to for a LONG time now, and that was just a confirmation.

Right! Lots to do! Gotta get to it!

So far so good... unless I'm refering to sleep. :P

Well that went well. :) It was hard to say what everyone thought of me. I think for the most part, everyone liked me.... though I think I really have to prove myself a bit more for a few of them... It was hard to say exactly what... But I only caught that from 2 of them.

I'm DEAD tired. I went to bed around 9 last night, but didn't fall asleep till at least 11... and of course, didn't sleep well. I took some valarian root..but that didn't help.. maybe it made it worse? Anyway.... I'm so sleepy I want to scream. This is really getting frustrating. Mom just suggested taking a power nap... which I've never been good at. Once I fall asleep, I'm out for HOURS. But maybe I'll try it, cause I don't know what else to do. :( It's a little upsetting. No.. it's more than a little. Extremely. Bah! I actually woke up when my alarm went off.. only cause I knocked the phone off the bed and had to go get it or face the insentient beeping of the alarm. But then I looked outside... gray clouds and WINDY.. so instead of going for a bike ride, I went back to sleep. (And officially got up at 9). Tomorrow, however, I won't have the option of going back to sleep... since I'll be going in to BV.

Okay... Power nap. Let's see if this works. (Good thing I don't have German choir tonight! Phew!)

Tomorrow!! AAHHHHH!

Tomorrow it all begins!
I'm waking up at 6:00am if it kills me, and going on a bike ride. (To ready myself for Tues, where I'll ride to work)
And then I'll go to G.W.C to meet with one of the teachers, go over what music to do, start getting my room ready, and then teach the teachers some music! Today I quickly whipped together a simple three part round of Hey, Ho, Nobody Home. So we'll either do that.. or if Scott has something better...we'll do that instead. Or maybe both! Who knows.. I'll find out when I get there.

WHEEE! I'm excited more than nervous. :) In fact.. I'm not nervous at all currently... Hopefully that keeps.

I am crazy tried, though.... STILL not sleeping well!!!! BAH!!! I can't wait till I'm NOT writing that anymore.. and then looking back on these posts going, "Oh yeah! I remember that! Man I'm glad that's over.." *eye roll* If only that moment were NOW and not in the future. Oh well. One step at a time.

Mom and I are starting Joel Furhman anew tomorrow as well. And I think I'll add in livestrong.com again.... cause that was really working for me. Those two things combined; I'll be set.

Out of the funk and into the BUSY!

Two days I got a phone call for a job offer teaching at a Waldorf inspired high school.. teaching 2 periods.. both 'singing' classes (basic music...basically). $40 an hour. After a phone call to my friend who was the previous teacher (and the one who recommended) and some internal discussion, I decided to take the job. And not but an hour after they had called, Waldorf called asking if I could play for the Eurythmy class (full time, as oppose to subbing like last time). WOW! Sooo... yeah... All of the sudden I got really busy. 6 jobs! But I need it, cause I just bought this little guy!:
No name yet.. though Marshmellow is a popular vote amongst my facebook buddies. I had a FANTASTIC experience at the dealership (who'd a thought!?). I saw the reviews for one of the dealers, Jeff Smart (awesome name).. and everyone had nothing but awesome things to say about him, so when we showed up, we asked for him like we knew him. He was a little confused when he came out to greet us, clearly raking his brain to remember these ladies in front of him (mom was with me). I promptly explained my googling experience. He was excited to hear it, and not entirely surprised. Anyway... he was awesome. And I got this. With 2.9% interest rate. Phew!

So with all my new jobs, all be paying that little guy off as fast as I can. My credit was good before... I'll be a rock star by the end of this. :)


School starts in 3 weeks (well.. the school I'm teaching at.. BV starts in two days!), so I've got 3 weeks to get in better shape. After all, if I'm going to be a roll model for these guys.. I'd like to also be a roll model for health as well. :) It's good inspiration. I just need to sleep better! Last night was okay.. I actually got a bad headache from a combination of not enough water and what I'm pretty sure was a detox from the "bad" food I had been eating the past month or so. (We were at the dealership for a while.. and I was afraid I was going to puke right there in the guys office.... thankfully I didn't. Mom was commenting how pale I looked, and the guy offered me some cantaloupe he had on him. Nice. :)) But I got through it with a wet washcloth and a fan blowing on my face. (Kudos for not taking any pain killers!)

Right! Lots of planning to do! Man I do SO much better when I'm busy. Darn tooten. I just hope I haven't swung the opposite direction and will get overloaded.... I'm think I'm good. Well see!

A tiny funk something

I'm feeling a little off today... Not sure what's up exactly. It could be I've been at the computer nearly ALL day for the past two days straight (working on recording for the musical and German choir). Yeah..... now that I read that sentence, I'm leaning more in that direction.
I took my remedy on the 27th of July.. but I'm feeling like I should redose again. Who knows where my count is... not much higher, if any at all. :P Mom keeps telling me to just forget about it and move on with life. Well I'm pretty sure I'm moving on with life, but it's near to impossible to forget.... Especially when I'm waiting to see something happen... and 'nothing' is what continues to happen. Maybe I should do another water fast? Of course... at the rate things are going, I don't know if I'll ever be able to do that again. *sigh* I'll cross that bridge later. I wouldn't be able to do it until January any way.

Sleep is STILL bad. UGH! It comes and goes.. I'd like it to GO and stay gone.

Ok.. I've been in front of the computer far too long today.

I'm going to redose.....