Need to start exercising again

So I've been taking a break from the exercising to rest my body... but I think I took too much of a break, because cloths are starting to fit just a little better (oy!). Today I was suppose to meet with Nick (my trainer), but he texted me in the morning saying he forgot he couldn't.... which in the end, turned out to be PERFECT for me because I needed to practice majorly for a rehearsal later that day. I'll continue on that story in a bit. So anyway... I'm sssoooooo ready to start exercising. I need to get out and move around! My life has become nothing but sitting.. and I want it to be nothing but moving! We were made to move.. so let's move! I'm actually a little frustrated.. cause that time was for my body to rest and heal... which I was doing for sure. Got in some GREAT rest.. no stress, plenty of sleep... But I'm pretty sure my platelets haven't budged. UGH! Is there no end to this madness!??!?! Maybe getting in shape will help.... if anything, I'll look (and feel) way better... and it'll be easier to check my liver and spleen. *If there was an 'eye roll' face.. I'd insert it here*

So on that other note:
Monday I got a call from someone... who needed a pianist for something on Saturday, with a rehearsal at some point on Friday. And I said I'd do it... and yes.. it was that vague. Okay..well.. maybe not THAT vague.. but that's as much info as I could get over the phone due to the fact that I was having a hell of a time understanding the women (just a bad reception). I gave her my email and asked for her to email me the music along with the details of the gig.
Well she finally calls me Thursday, apologizing that she hadn't emailed me yet and said she would do it as soon as we hung up. And she also informed me the rehearsal was at two.
Feeling a little silly, I quickly asked, "Where is this again?" I figured I had better find out before we hang up.
She kind of paused, clearly thinking that that was a really silly question..cause she had already told me at some point in all of this. "Rudolph Center College" is what I heard.
Me, "Oh.. ookkaay." (I quickly google that as I'm talking with her, having NO idea where or what that was). Turns out it's Rudolf Steiner College.. which is RIGHT next to Waldorf... and apparently it's the place to go if you want to teach at Waldorf.
So we hang up, and I STILL don't know what I'm doing exactly. I just know I'm playing two pieces by Debussy (and at this point, I'm thinking I'm accompanying a choir).
Well I wake up this morning and print out the music.... and find it's just straight up piano music. Reverie, and Voiles... both I've heard, but never played. Needless to say, I printed them out straight away and then proceeded to practice. AND while I was printing, I figured out that I was playing for an Eurythmy performance! AH! Finally! Light has been shed! At least I know what I'm doing.
The rehearsal went fairly well.. considering I was practically sight reading (OY! NOT easy pieces to sight read.. especially Voiles). But it was WAY WAY WAY cooler than the 6th grade class at Waldorf. These were all college age folk, and wearing beautiful, colorful flowing gowns.
Thankfully I have more time to practice (I already have.... now to sleep and let it soak in)

So there you have it. Frustrated about my stupid platelets, need to get outside and MOVE, and happy that I'm getting paid to learn some beautiful Debussy pieces.
(And Zoe has become a nigh owl and LOVES to hang out outside at night.... This sentence is prompted by the faint sounds of my father calling "Zoooeeee.. kitty kitty kitty!" and making tusking sounds.)

Another round of CS proves amazing

Yesterday I had another round of CS. Again.. amazing. Not but minutes into it I totally wanted to cry... with this HUGE knot in my throat.. and it took a while to release. And for almost the whole hour she worked around my neck and head.. and couldn't get the tension to release there.. but we're working on it.
Afterward she said I might be sore in that area, and sure enough... later that night I'm like "Ooo... why is my neck so sore?.... OH!!! Whoa!" Crazy!!! I'm QUITE impressed that you can get sore from someone barely touching you... it feels like I got a deep Swedish massage or something of the like.

Okay.. I've been eating a LOT lately. Even when I'm not really hungry I want to eat.... Either I'm bored and don't know it and need to get a job (which I should anyway)... and/or I'm in need of SOMEthing and I haven't figured it out yet.
Either way, it's time for bed. :)

Pineapple sorbe (for juice fasting!)

During my short stint of juice fasting, here's one of the juices I made:

This is frozen pineapple juice, honey, and a few drops of liquid stevia. Pure awesome.

Taking care of the teeth and other random things

My rockin' toothpaste finally came! Indeed, it's a good one (of course.. I'm coming from brushing my teeth with baking soda.... so frankly, anything will seem good). But really though, it's not super sweet, and I feel like it does a good job. I've only had it for two days now, so we'll see how it does within the next month.
To add to my new dental health care, I got a pick (you know.. for scraping tarter and such) and a new electric toothbrush. When the pick comes in, I'm essentially going to give myself a "deep cleaning." When I was at the dentist, the hygienist sort of cleaned my teeth, but didn't really go all out because she thought I was coming back. Well look lady.. it's $700, plus you just don't get the fact that I have low platelets.. so I'm not coming back anytime soon. And as we all know, I'm a big fan of doing it myself (the story of my life these days), so why not be my own dentist!? :D Should be interesting. I got a little mirror too, just for the occasion!


I don't remember most of my dream from last night, but I do remember this: I was running (for the purpose of running..aka exercise) and loving it. And was so fast! It was such an incredible experience.. I hit a point where I could have stopped if I wanted to (it was like PE class or something), but I just kept going and realized I wasn't winded at all, nor had that terrible feeling that your heart is going to pound right out of your sternum. We ran 4 miles. And I could have kept going on forever.
This dream needs to come true. I want to love running. I'm not the biggest fan right now... most likely cause I'm so out of shape! Oy! Flabby McGee!


I forgot to mention that on Monday I got food poisoning. Yeah! Good times right there! The day started out great (I was feeling awesome on Sunday, having just finished my mini juice fast), and breakfast was a yummy bowl of fruit and oatmeal. But I was still hungry not too long after and had a little more fruit. And an hour or so later I was STILL wanting something, so I popped into the kitchen and ate something I haven't had in a long time: An Egg. (over medium, to be exact).
Now.. clearly it didn't taste rotten.. else I wouldn't have eaten it, but it must have just been going bad or something, cause an hour later, things began going south. I'll spare you the details. Just know that my burps tasted of rancid egg, and my body was bound and determined to rid itself of all nutritional substance by any means necessary.. and all means were utilized.. more often than once.
The whole escapade ended late into the night, but I was still feeling it the next day. My digestive system was having a hell of a time getting things back in working order... it seemed all the crucial bacteria hitched a ride during the mass exodus the day before. A bit a yogurt helped that.
Anyway! Almost back to normal now! :) It was about 6 months since I had an egg last... you can bet your britches it'll be a few years before I try it again.


I’ve been making more money (finally!).. working hard to make more, for sure. But because of that, I will no longer be getting medi-cal stuff (it’s not exactly medi-cal.. but close)…. So I’m not sure what this means with my hematologist, cause I got referred to him by the clinic.. who’s associated with medi-cal. So I’m not sure if I can go to that clinic any more, and then not sure if I’ll be able to see my hema because of that. Really though, it doesn’t matter AT ALL. It’s not like he’s doing anything. I’m refusing conventional treatment, so there’s nothing for him to do but check me out once in a while and see ‘yup.. she’s not dead or bleeding out everywhere.’ And it’s not like I need to go to the clinic anymore either.. since I’m loosing all faith in standard medical health care. The ONLY bummer is how am I going to get a CBC? Hmmm… I could always go up to Santa Rosa, I guess… it’s just a drag cause it won’t be free. I’m seeing my CS therapist tomorrow… maybe her husband will be willing to order me one if I need it (he’s an MD). Need to check the cost though.


Okay summer. I’m ready for you. Let’s do this already.

Car sick like I was 10...

Mom and I just went out to run a few errands... And I got SO car sick. o.O We're kickin' it old school here with this one. I haven't been car sick like this in a LONG time. It's interesting to note that I noticed I was getting a little car sick when I took my first remedy... but that eventually subsided. I wonder if the new remedy is doing this as well? Cause I tell you what, wow. And it's not like I was reading or anything... just sitting and staring out over the front of the car. I had to stick my head out the window for a cool breeze and fresh air.
And now I'm going to lay down.
Good grief. We were out for 20 minutes.

New pop tune!

Wow has it been a LONG time since I've written a pop tune. My journaling yesterday sort of inspired this... and the lyrics are very loosely based off of it. Here's what I've got so far:

V1:
Unspoken words between the lines get hard to read when you say those things.
So juxtaposing , unsuspecting.. This game has lost its entertaining flare.
Can’t bare to play it anymore.
V2:
Un-touching hands brush casually in crowded rooms and empty halls.
You give me reasons, find excuses. It’s easy now where once was so taboo.
Yet you won’t take it past this point.
Bridge:
And in the end I know it’s unavailing. But you know I hate to disappoint…
Chorus:
Why should I care? You tell me not to please the world. So please don’t give me that.
How can I be, when you intimidate me? Can’t speak my mind with you, and you won’t let me know.
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There you have it. I'm quite pleased with the chord changes, too. I'll most likely finish it tomorrow and record it (to bad my voice is SO outrageously out of shape... *sigh*)

The magic of journaling

So I'm a tad moody today. These things happen, and are to be expected from time to time... due to... *ahem*... certain unavoidable biological circumstances. I realized it yesterday when a friend of mine was ragging on me (as per usual) and all of the sudden I just wanted to cry and was really hurt/upset by it. At first I thought it was him, being extra mean or something to that effect, but upon further inspection I realized it was just me... being a typical girl.
This morning wasn't much better, so instead of stewing about it, I opened up a Word document and just started writing... almost in a fashion as if I was talking to him and wanting him to know exactly how I was feeling (but slightly more free-formed). By the end of it, it had become something completely different and I was able to come to some realizations and understand about myself. Really though, I should do this more often. All the time I'm holding everything in and never really sorting things out... it's not healthy, on any level.

I need to put my foot down here:

• No food after 8pm
• No TV or Computer after 9pm
• BED AT 10pm!!!

This is just absolutely critical, and I can't stress it enough. If I want to implement any changes, I have to get a good night sleep, and said sleep needs to be consistent. Once I can get this under control, I think more things will follow, and come to me with greater ease.

(I'd like to take this moment to point out that my vocab is coming to me faster these days. I noticed it when I was writing my World Music paper (ONE DONE! ONE TO GO! WHOOHOO!). Words that I wanted to use were coming to mind much more rapidly and with ease. Sometimes I find myself desperately grasping for a word but never really finding it, and then having to settle for a lesser synonym. But within the past few days, I seem to be more on point. Go me.)

The above picture will be the first of many, I should hope. A new goal is to go on some kind of adventure once a week, and an outside adventure at that). This was a simple one.. my back yard. But the grass is outstandingly long (waist high..sometimes as tall me) and it's GREAT fun to walk through... just need to watch out for long grass critters. Oy.