A bit of everything

Man I don't write here enough! Too much to recap now....

Let's see. I'm not playing at Waldorf any more.. it was all just too much. I had to let something go, and that was the one that was just too out of the way and didn't pay enough to compensate for that. PLUS I can now space out BV on the days that I don't go to Sac State. Really, it just makes everything better. :)

The hardest part about teaching, I've discovered (for myself, at any rate) is discipline. Yikes. I definitely don't have that down yet. Really, though.. everyone says I'm a great teacher, but honestly I wasn't ready. I had NO training at all. Sink or swim, and learn the hard way.. that's what I get now. Ha. I think I'm enjoying it..I think (haven't fully decided yet). However, I yearn to make REAL music with professionals the longer I work with these kids.

I'm struggling to get organized. I need to clean my room so badly, but once I get home I'm just SO mentally drained that I don't want to do anything. :P

The cold that I got last week is just about done... It never really amounted to anything in the first place, which is just fantastic for me, considering I used to get a cold for weeks upon weeks in my younger years.

I need to exercise. I need to go dancing. Somehow I need to find the time. This should be higher on the priority list than it is currently. I did push-ups tonight.. and hope to make that a nightly routine. (I had that going for a while about 5 years back. It was simple, and worked. Time to do it again). Managed 10 girly ones. *facepalm* It's a start, right?

I took a new hpathy (X-Ray) last week. I think it helped with my cold. But it was for my platelets...Not sure where my count is currently.... I'd guess 30s..maybe. I'll get a CBC tomorrow! It's been over two months.... which is the longest I've gone since being diagnosed (It went from every week to every month.. I guess now it's every two months. Heh)

The other night I dreamed I was a werewolf (along with two other people). I remember we went to some school and picked up this girl who didn't know she was one..but was about to find out for the first time cause there was a full moon. She, I, and I think my brother where in the back seat of a car.. I'm not sure where we were driving to, but the three of us started changing. I remember trying to fight it, but then looking out the window and seeing the moon.. and then it was filling my vision and I couldn't look away from it.. And this raw, wild, intense feeling was overwhelming me and I could feel myself start to turn into a wolf. I woke up before that actually happened, but for a good portion of that morning and into the afternoon I could still faintly sense that feeling. That sometimes happens with my dreams... a lingering feeling.

I also had another dream... but that's a little more on the R rated side. So. Heh. Yeah.

The colors of Autumn

Fall seems to be on it's way.. and I LOVE autumn. Hands down my favorite season. The energy in the air is so... vibrant. And it feels like anything is possible. I need to get out more and enjoy it! Soak it up before it's winter. California is notorious for autumn lasting..oh..a few weeks, and then the rest of the time it's a cold, raining winter.
This is a pic from our grapevine. Unfortunately, we had bugs that killed it for the most part. We got about 1/4 of what the crop should have been. Ugh. Mom found some natural spray...so we'll use that next year. Quite unfortunate. But the grapes that made it were tasty.

Sore throat! ACK!

Clearly, due to my lack of posting, I have been busy. That is the understatement of the century. Teaching is fun, but slightly exhausting... trying to keep kids in line, quite, and teach them all at the same time will wear you out right quick. But I think I can handle it.
Apparently, though, what I CAN'T handle is EVERYONE in the musical being sick, and hanging out with them backstage. Opening night one boy was sick, by the third show, two more were sick. By the next weekend ALL but two were sick. :P I'm surprised I wasn't included in that. However, I HAD been getting good, solid sleep every night for the past week (finally sleeping well!!! WHOO!), but last night I didn't get much. 1) The show ended at 11pm. I didn't get in bed till midnight, and then had to get up at 6:30am this morning. So that screwed with things. And 2) I had to wear my wrist guards cause my hands are hurting from all the piano playing. And then on top of bad/minimal sleep, the way of women is about to crash into me, and that messes with things immune wise. SO, now I find myself with a sore throat. I've made myself a green smooth with spinach, kale, zucchini, celery, cilantro, and strawberries. (Poured onto cantaloup and granola)... and am about to suck on some zinc. We'll see what becomes of this.
Thankfully, I don't have to work tomorrow morning (though that will end next week).

Tomorrow I'll see Dr. Allen for a check up about my back. It's better, though all this work is not helping, and it was starting to hurt again during the show tonight. :P Lame.

I called to get an order for a CBC, but they haven't called me back yet. Though it's pointless, cause I can tell by my ugly purple bruises that it has gone no where. Grrrrrrrrr. I had my little revelation about not loosing hope the last time I blogged.. so I'm hanging on to that as hard as I possibly can. I see these bruises though and just want to weep with frustration and scream wildly. What am I not doing!? What have I missed?!? There has to be something missing... shouldn't I be better by now? Or at least improved? Stagnate is where I'm at. Maybe because I'm not exercising?..... I'm stagnate with exercise, so my platelets are mirroring that. Wow.... okay.... I wonder if that's right... I just had another revelation JUST like the one last time.... same exact thing, but with the word "mirror." I know what that means... no one else does.... It has to do with my last session with Linda. Wow. Could that really be it? Hmmmmm. I wouldn't have any reason to say 'no, that's not right' because I haven't been exercising... not for a long time (in a solid, consistent way)...so there's no evidence to say otherwise. Something to think about for me, for sure. Thankfully the weather is improving (and by improving, I mean cooling off), so maybe I'll be more likely to go outside. If only I won't get sick now.....

There's LOTS more to blog about, but I need to go to bed early....sooo.. I'm going to do that instead. :)