Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Nick the Trainer

Today I got a call from my new trainer, Nick... we played phone tag. :) ... and text tag. The end result: Tomorrow I'm meeting him at 11:00am for my first session. FINALLY! I went to the gym today and got my run in.. 1 mile in 10:50! Fastest yet! :D But I'm really frustrated at myself for not getting back in the saddle eating wise. That chocolate cake was huge... unfortunately. Even though it's infinitely healthier than regular cake, it still has a lot of calories.... and for sure I'm not burning enough to make up for it. Hopefully I can find strength, encouragement, and new discipline in this Nick fellow. We'll find out tomorrow!

Thursday we leave for.. *drum roll*... DISNEYLAND! I'm so excited! I just love that place. It's magical.

I am constantly tired, it seems... and I've been this way for weeks now. I'd really like to be awake and have energy instead of constantly feeling like I need a nap! Yesterday I was total drag hanging out with Sarah... I was a zombie just about. I even fell asleep in the car on the way home from thrift shopping. I'm wondering if this has anything to do with my platelets?... Cause I've never been like this... so tired. And I remember it starting after my count really dropped. If HPathy can bring it up, than I am for SURE going to become a practitioner. And I can't give up hope. This is not going to be how my life is going to go. I refuse to have low counts forever. Something needs to be fixed, and will be fixed... and is being fixed.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Birthday fun!

Yesterday was my 27th birthday. Wow! 3 more years till the big THREE ZERO!
I had a small "party".. consisting of my best friend Sarah, a very good friend Jessica, and my mother. We basically hung out in the kitchen the entire time, baking the cake.. and then while it cooled, a Thai pizza for dinner. Pictures will be posted later (Sarah has them).
Naturally, everything was "Kate friendly".... meaning no processed crap was in them. :) This was the same meal we made last year.... but the marked improvement was that I wasn't on Prednisone and weighed 15 pounds lighter this time around. :) Next time will be even better.
It was a wonderful time. We chatted about all sorts of things... had some really good Christian fellowship, told stories of older days, giggled over who would make good husbands... something I would not have been able to do with all my friends of the male persuasion. And the food was just dynamite! That pizza! WOW! The crust was a gargantuan whole wheat tortilla. The sauce was peanut butter (home made with nothing but roasted peanuts), honey, soy sauce, garlic, ginger, and something else (mom was making that part.. so I missed what all was in there). And the toppings were zucchini, mushrooms, red bell pepper, purple onion, crushed pineapple, chopped peanuts, garbanzo beans, and shredded tofu (that last bit was moms idea... and it tasted like meat in the end!) Then sprinkled some garlic powder on top and baked it till the tortilla was crispy... or as crispy as it could get. Momma mia! That was one tastey pizza!!
Then we ended the night by watching some Dr. Who. Mom acutally joined us! :D Heheheh. We watched the first two episodes of season 5...and I must say, I was SO sad to see David Tennat leave after season 4, and was quite skepitcal of the newest doctor. However, this new actor is proving to be quite satisfactory. :)

Now... these past few weeks I've been working really hard on not eating more than 1,200 calories (with little splurge Sundays, to keep the body guessing)... but this Sunday was MAJOR splurge day.. and spilled over into today was well. So now I am stuffed to the gills and have some serious stomach acid from it. Oy. Tomorrow, thank the Lord, I don't have to work at Waldorf so I can take the time to hit the gym HARD. My trainer STILL hasn't called me.... *hurumph!* (I just now called the gym to remind them... just in case I got lost in paper work or something).

I'm closer to my running goal! 11 minutes for 1 mile! It's not close to 9 minutes by any stretch, but it's getting there... I managed to stay at a 5.5 the WHOLE time. I remember the first time I was running at a 4.5... and 5.5 was just too much. It's nice when you can see the difference!

Friday, March 25, 2011

Moving furniture can do wonders for your mental health

Well now. That solves that... or at least really helps, if not solve. I'm referring to my rut that I've been stuck in for quite some time now. It's been all I can do to not curl up on my couch and rot away watching episodes of Dr. Who. (A fantastic show, by the way). I've been needing to clean my room for.. oh... about a year now. Nearly daily I've said, "Okay.. I'm going to clean my room today." And then things happen, and it never got done. So I finally decided I not only needed to clean my room, I need to completely change it. If a cluttered room is a cluttered mind, then a changed room is a changed mind.... sort of. At any rate, it definitely worked. Because I moved every piece of furniture in here, I had to REALLY clean as well... so much was accomplished yesterday. I'm not completely finished (need to put books away now), but it feels outstandingly refreshing, and I have more 'umph' to do stuff. I have watched some more Dr. Who episodes, but am cleaning and rearranging at the same time (as opposed to simply vegging out on the couch).

I'm still quite sleepy these days... though if I do go to the gym and get a work out in, I feel MUCH better afterwards. My goal of running a mile in less than 9 minutes is slowly becoming more attainable. My time today was 11:15 (better than 13:00!... which is where it was a few weeks ago). For the first time in my life, I'm getting a trainer. There was a good deal going on at the gym: $100 for 5 one hour sessions. I haven't gotten a call to set up a time yet, but hopefully that will happen soon. I'm stoked about this.

I forgot to mention last time that my count was 21. Lame and shocking all at once. I would have put money down that it was in the 40's. Though wouldn't you know it, just a day or two after I got the lab done, it became physically apparent my count was lower then what it had seemed to have been. NOW it seems like it's in the 20's..... so maybe it was higher... and then my second round of Phosphorous dropped it. *Sigh* Whilst moving furniture around, I got some bruises on my legs... blue and purple, as per normal these days. It was a year ago that my count plummeted into the teens. I remember the doctors in the hospital making it sound like this would be all over, fixed, and done in just a matter of weeks. HA! Weeks my left shoe! I keep going back and forth about really caring and getting bummed out about it, to not caring and not even noticing (cause I am ridiculously busy these days!). I'm still hanging in there, but every now and again I just want to throw my hands up and give up hope that they'll ever be normal. Ah but that's dramatic. I can't forget that I've only just started HPathy... only a month and a half. Some people who take conventional drugs have a wait even longer before they see results. So I should stop complaining and continue on with life. Yes. A good idea, Kate. Why thank you. :)

My throat is hurting just a little bit. The student teacher at work got a nasty cold/flu.. and a lot of the kids are sick as well. Hmmmmm. *squinty eyes* Perhaps I should suck on some zinc... just to be safe.

Two more shows left for the musical! It's been going very well. The audience has yet to be a good one... they've been okay, but I'm still waiting for a keeper. It'll be a relief and a bummer all at the same time for me. It was a great work out, but my back can't take much more. Nearly 3 hours of playing the piano.. yikes!

Next week is DISNEYLAND! WHOOHOO! I love my job so much. That's right.. we're going to Disneyland... first to sing, and then to play. And I hope dearly that I get to see Jess while we're down there. I miss him.

My birthday is this Sunday. I didn't reach my weight goal of 130.. not anywhere close...140 currently.... but I AM losing weight.. so it's a step in the right direction. Didn't reach my platelet goal either... which wasn't a set number.. just higher.... but like I said, life continues. I should think in the future presences in this regard, perhaps. Hmmm.. Interesting idea.

Here's my new hair cut: Short and simple
(It's a bit of a mess.. and I was running out the door to go to a gig..
the next shot was of my laughing and
saying I needed to leave)


Right! Back to Dr. Who and cleaning!

Friday, March 18, 2011

One show down! 5 more to go!

Hey look! I finally have some time to blog! Whoo!
Yesterday was opening night for How to Succeed In Business Without Really Trying (man that's a long title). It went surprisingly well! A few technical issues cropped up, but all around, everyone did a great job. The kids really stepped it up a notch (I think having the audience helped). I know I was DEAD TIRED... but somehow managed to summon up a hidden store of energy and used it. It's a three hour show.. so we finished around 10:00pm... and I went promptly to bed as soon as I got home. Tonight starts at 8... so we wont' finish till 11. Oy.

So! Waldorf!...
I'm playing piano for the Eurhythmy class... only Tuesdays and Thursdays, which is the 6th grade class.. and it's the last period of the day. Yikes. The kids are incredibly swirly, and the teacher only halfway keeps order in the room. My job is beyond easy.. I just sit at the piano and site read classical music... and apparently, it doesn't really change. So now I'm not even site reading anymore. Soooooo easy it's not really fun, just boring. The only way I can make it interesting is to be as musical as I possibly can. No one notices, but that's not the point.. it's for me. :)
At the beginning of the class, they pass out copper rods and do a little routine with them (passing them to each other, spinning them, dropping them behind their backs and catching them, twirling them while moving in the circle).. I'm sure it looks cool, but I'm reading music.. so I can't really see. The major issue however, is that these are COPPER rods.. and these are 6th graders. You can only imagine the daring sword fights and 1920's mobster the spontaneously immerge from the boys as soon as they get a hold of the rods. Heheh. It's cute.

I just got a call from the doctors office.. Platelets are 21, which shocked me. By the way I’ve been bleeding.. or rather.. the lack there of, I would have put money down that my count was in the 40’s. Curious. But I had just taken a second round, so it could have been dipping…. I’ve got an extra CBC order here at home, and will use it in a few weeks before I see my hematologist. But at any rate, things are going well.. As soon as I get my energy back, I’ll get a trainer at the gym and really start working out… but until then, I’ll just relax. So with that said.. I'm going to use this rare free time to rest. More later....

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Round 2 for h-pathy! (Dream sequence!)

I took my remedy again last night, and then had one of the most vivid dreams I've ever had in my life. Coincidence? Perhaps. But awesome non the less... and I slept REALLY well to boot!
I can't remember most of the dream.. but it was the last bit that sticks with me and was incredible.
It was a typical flying dream... where I'm flying over hills, lakes, mountains, forests, etc.. all nature. It was sooooo gorgeous! So many details and vibrant autumn colors in the trees. Beautiful blues and greens in the water. The sun was setting, leaving a golden glow in the surrounding sky, and I could see for miles in every direction. One thing that was quite new, however, was that it was slightly breezy...and more over, the breeze was kind of chilly. I've never experienced weather temperature in my dreams... or at least not to the point where I notice. And it was markedly cold. As I flew, snow started appearing in clumps on the ground, and the further I went, the more snow there was.. and the colder it got! It finally got the point where everything was covered in a crystal winter white blanket.
As per usual, I was searching for a house... a very specific one... with a specific man inside. Where and who? Don't ask.. I don't know. I'm looking. :) Only once before have I found it in all my dreams like this (and there have been quite a few). And I actually found it again! (It's very typical that I don't..)
There was a dog outside... the kind that's always happy to see anybody and their whole body shakes when they wag their tail. It came up to me, and I bent down to greet it and stroke it. (This was also new.. it's very rare for dogs to be in my dream, and even more so for me to have a good interaction with them).
To get into the house, I just walked through the nearest wall (Yeah.. I've gotten really good at that over the years... It's really really really convenient when trying to escape bad guys... cause they can never do it. Heheheh). I brought the dog in with me, and he brought me over to the fire place and opened it for me. (Not an open fire place... it was like a huge metal closet with double doors). It was a full wonderful fire, and felt delightfully warm after flying through the chilly night air (the sun had set by the time I reached the snowy part).
I curled up by it, hoping that there was someone inside the house.. and more specifically, would come to see who had just come in.. cause in my dreams, if I'm alone for too long without character interaction, I'll wake up.
I remember looking around and being in awe of how detailed everything was. It was a beautiful house. Wood floors. A large staircase leading to the second floor. Rugs... A warm, soft light lit the room.
Then a man walked in to investigate.. it wasn't the man.. but a man. Unfortunately, it had taken too long, and I started to wake up as he crouched down to me. BAH! I didn't get a good look at him... and I would have LOVED to have seen the rest of the house. Ah well. It was cool that I found it. It was so beautiful all covered in snow, surrounded by trees.

Okay.. I wanted to share that before I loose it.

I'm thinking I'm going to join the gym.. so that way I can go whenever, and not have to wait for mom (I'm her guest, at the moment). AND I can get a personal trainer... which I've never had. I really feel good about the way things are going in my life.. and I really need to get on this and get in shape! I'm going to be 27 soon.... and won't be getting any younger, that's for darn sure. Now is the time! Now now now now now! No more waiting.. no more tomorrows.. no more laters. I've got to do it now. :) Yay pep talk.

Okay bed.. I'm coming.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Busy busy little bee!

The musical opens next week! Yikes! Today we only had a chance to run through the show ONCE.. it took 5 hours.... wow. Normally the Saturday before opening we can get through it all the way, with at least a second run of the first act, and maybe second. This was just rediculous. And the show is just exhausting to play. I'm certainly getting my work out.

Needless to say, I'm really tired, and well beyond busy... There's so much I want to post, but need to sleep, so I'm going to jot down things to expand on later:

1. My first day at Waldorf
2. Reflections on the past year (my diagnosis anniversary is coming up on the 16th.. I actually have a doctors appointment that day. HA!)
3. Hmm.. I could have sworn there was more. Oh well!

Monday, March 7, 2011

New job!

I got a call yesterday... long story short, I'll now be working at a Waldorf school. It's a private preK-12th grade school... 22 acres over looking the American River. I'll be playing for...er...some kind of music and rhythm class one hour every Tuesday and Thursday. And it works PERFECTLY in my schedule. Awesome.

My birthday is fast approaching, and I decided I want to go an adventure for the day.... Go hiking somewhere and have a picnic.. something like that. :) Hopefully the weather will be good! If it keeps going the way it's going, than it should be.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Longest rehearsals ever

Today I am more than pooped. Wow. I'm struggling to keep my eyes open even now.. and it's only 6:30. What is the cause of my exhaustion, you ask? Thursday I had two gigs, consuming my entire day from 9am-9pm. And then Friday again from 9am-9pm. It was a great gig.. and a HUGE concert. I accompanied a choir that consisted of 370 high schoolers.. and the audience was about 1,000. It was a great experience to say the least, but wow am I TIRED now. Plus today we ran the whole show (and then some).. about 5+ hours of rehearsing.

I'm still trying to find a good ballance with my calorie intake and my energy level... I don't think I ate enough the past two days.. so today I was ravenous.

I think I'm going to take a long, steamy hot shower and then go to bed. It's a long two weeks ahead with the musical (show opens the 17th).

Oh.... I'm suposed to finish my paper too.. Hmmm.. I really need to figure out what I'm doing with that. Oy. Lots going on! Key: Don't get stressed. So far so good... Just physically tired.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Fun snack!

Due to my trying to loose weight, my 'ants on a log' was getting short sided because of it's calorie count. So I've been trying to find ways to make it 'go further' with the same amount of calories. And whalla! I've stumbled on something that does the trick for me:

  • 1 apple lightly blended (aka SUPER finely chopped)
  • 2 tb Almond butter
  • 1/4 tsp Molasses
  • 4-6 drops of stevia

Mush all that together and then eat it, but not with a spoon....but with celery, of course. Eatable spoons are way more fun then regular spoons... and better for you. :) I get about three large stalks out of deal. And it's filling to boot! (which I've been having a hard time coming by these days)

No picture.. only cause I'm eating it right now as I type, and don't feel like getting out the camera. Heheheh :)