A super quick recap of the last year and half:
2016:
- Participated in a dance comp at a huge dance-weekend event
- Shaved the sides and back of my head (to help cultivate my sassy side.... It worked.)
- Went to a David Deida lecture <3 li="">
- Tiled the back patio
- Music directed Anne
- Hiked to the Yuba River several times
- Audition for a musical
- Got a role in said musical (as Fraulein Schneider in Cabaret)
- Sang with the Advanced Vocal Jazz Ensemble at ARC
- Had a guest choir from Germany at our annual concert at the Turn Verein
- Played with Music In The Mountains for New Years. Always a blast.
- Went to New Orleans with VJ1 to sing at the Jazz Educators Conference
- Went to Denver with the ARC Theatre to perform Cabaret, compete in the Irene Ryans (as a partner), and participated in the workshops there...and had a marvelous time!
- Participated in a show called Gumbo at ARC and semi music directed it (just sort of happened)
- Baked a BUNCH of awesome stuff
- Music directed Peter Pan and built an amazing boat for it (for ONE scene only.... but it was worth it)
- Learned how to make my own loose-leaf tea
- Decided to go to True North again, since my health still isn't totally with the program
Okay... so now that we're all caught up there...
Here's what's happening now:
I arrived at True North on Saturday, bright and early in hopes that I'd be able to start fasting immediately. However, much to my disappointment, the doctor was VERY nervous about my platelets and fasting for too long. I was confused at first, since she was my doctor the last time and my platelets were exactly the same back then as they are now. But as we continued to discuss the matter, it became clear that she had had a patient with a platelet issue sometime in the past year, and it ended badly. So I understood her trepidation.
Thus, I got blended soups for the rest of the day (and they were AMAZING. So no complaints here!) and then broth on Sunday.
The broth is called "therapeutic broth." I have no idea what's in it, but it's basically water with a slight taste, and allows you to sort of fast, but not as deeply. It also has an aftertaste of Triskets. Straight up.... Triskets. No joke.
By the end of Sunday, though, the broth was tasting horrible and I wasn't drinking it, so I got juice instead. And then juice again all day on Monday.
Which brings us to today!
Day 1 of water!
So far so good. My energy is a little lower now (it's the end of the day), but no headache and no nausea, and I'm hoping it'll stay that way. Hunger pangs are far less than they were a few hours ago, and I'm sure will be totally gone by tomorrow. (She says with such confidence!)
I had a good, deep cry earlier today, as well as one on Sunday...which is one of the big factors as to why I'm here. I have stuffed SO much into my gut (emotionally speaking) over my whole lifetime, and I do believe it's one of the factors for the vomiting episodes... Almost like my belly was brimming full and just couldn't take any more stuffing. So now, as the weight gets shed, there's nowhere for it to hide, and it's coming up and out. :)
I wrote in my private journal that I feel so loved by *me* right now. The last two times I was here, I let myself just chat the days away with the other folk that are here, read some fiction books, and then watch movies/shows at night. But this time, I'm consciously doing inner work, stretching, and making sure to take a few laps around the courtyard...and still manage to get in lots of socializing and movies! It's only been 4 days, and lots of work has already happened. It's a beautiful thing, and I'm the one doing it. No one is holding my hand, guiding me, or telling me what to do or when to do it. I'm fully, completely, taking care of myself and my needs, as well as being mindful to not overdue anything.
Also... I bought a ridiculously sexy swimsuit top to sunbathe in, along with this cute top to go over it. It's one of my new favorite things to wear. (The picture is from Saturday)
With all that being said! Time for some Doctor Who!
