Well that's a disappointing number....not to mention shocking..

I have to say... a part of me was not surprised... a small part. Somehow I knew it was low..though I wanted to deny it, thinking maybe if I THOUGHT a higher number, that would somehow make it so. Alas...that is not the case.
19.
Really? ... Damn.
I wanted to burst into tears at first... Back into the teens? It's been almost three years now, and I'm almost back to where I started. :P Not a fun feeling to say the least.
HOWEVER...
I am using this as a butt gear kicker and motivator. I was slacking off with exercise and sneaking sugar and gluten and dairy and meat and oil and salt back into my eating. Granted... it's still NOTHING close to how bad I used to eat.. but it was sneaking in, none-the-less. I used the fact that I was treating myself with homeopathy as an excuse (for whatever reason)... thinking that it wasn't what I was eating, cause it didn't seem like it was effecting me. Well now... clearly I'm doing something wrong..... Something very....very....wrong.
Man this sucks, though. A part of me wants to fall on the floor and totally give up... another part wants to fight. The rain and cold does not help the fighter.... *facepalm*

Sick and re-dosed

Yeeaaahhhh... Who had some apple pie? All sugary and white floury....? That'd be me. And who got sick the next day? Of course... me.
So now I have a cold. :P
And I re-dosed last night. 1 drop.