Thanksgiving Recap

As per usual, I'm tired and it's late..so I will bullet the highlights.

• Thanksgiving break was awesome. It started out with a concert, then sailing, then a trip to Hollister, then a conference, then a quick stop back in Hollister to pick up two new kittens! Currently Zoe is a little confused and put off.... she'll get over it. :) The picture on the right is Stella, and the other one looks JUST like her; Maximus. They're outrageously cute.  More pictures will follow, I'm sure of it. 

Sailing on a CALM sea with a stunning sunset

Mom and Jeff trying to explain themselves (they lost)

• I started feeling overwhelmed and depressed towards the end of the weekend, so I redosed the Carsinosin (dry). Now I'm watching the nasty bruises on my legs to see how fast they heal. Really, I need to call for a CBC.

• Mom and I started the Joel Furhman challenge. I want to win it so I can get a free trip to his weekend resort. That's some motivation. Plus, I'm really thinking about joining CalFit again. It's on the way to and from work, which makes it convenient and doable, plus I really like all the classes and the POOL.

At the dock at sunset

Clean room. Aaahhhh

Mom gave me a pep talk/lecture. Basically, that put a fire under me and I got my room cleaned in a matter of hours. *facepalm* It's not like it's hard... it's just a matter of doing it. *sigh*

Tomorrow I'm off for the Bay, then coming back to Sac but not coming home...then going straight to the ranch, and then straight to the conference on Friday. We'll be back on Sunday.. and hopefully bringing with us a friend for Zoe! :D Needless to say, my computer will be off since I'll be gone for the whole week.

I haven't redosed yet.... I'll wait out the week to see how I feel. Mentally I don't feel overwhelmed, though there's nothing to feel overwhelmed about, since I've been checking things off my 'to do' list.

Yikes I'm tired. Did Zumba this morning. That was fun and a good workout, though I didn't get my heart going as much as I'd like. But it's a start, for sure. :)

Away I go!

We love Ms. Janzen

Today was the last day before Thanksgiving break. As you can imagine, we sang for a bit, and then had some free time at the end of class.
But while we were singing, some students were being disruptive and I sent them outside. This is what they did:

"Ms. Janzen We love you!"
and
"Ms. Janzen your adorable" (notice the misspelling! Hahahah!)

It was the cutest thing ever.. and it was REALLY cold outside (the weather was shifting dramatically during class), so I let them back in.''

I still don't have a very good reign on them.. but we're all having fun. Though we could have MORE if I could get them under control. Much too much drama amongst themselves.... especially the boys. *eye roll*

On the white board they drew this during the free time:
On the other side someone wrote, "I love Ms. Janzen" And then all around that in different colors was "me too", "me also", "awesomeness", "same here", etc. Hehehe. They're such goobers, but I love them. Too freaken adorable.

Curves

Mom wanted to go check out this gym called Curves (it's for women). I did it once or twice a LONG time ago... It's changed since then, to be sure, but still seems interesting. It's definitely for older ladies... but hey, I need a kick start.. and I'll get it anyway I can! We're going to go for a week (for free) to check it out, and then go from there. I have a feeling I won't keep going and pay... but I'll totally go for free while I can. :D Here's hoping this is what I need! Must. Get. In. SHAPE! OY!

Becoming a superhero

I mean.. why not? No.. I'm not talking like Spiderman where I need a radioactive spider on hand. I'm just referring to achieving your absolute potential as a human being. I think far too often we settle for far less than we're capable of. Personally, I could do MUCH more with my life.... but lack the discipline mostly. I know I can do so much more. Jess is the same way. Brilliant, and has so much potential.. just lazy as hell with very little self discipline.
I would honestly like to move in this direction. I guess the first step is to make a list of what I think a modern superhero's qualities are.
But before I get into that. Bed time. :) (Good health is on that list. And a good night's sleep is part of good health.. so I'll start there.)

Now THAT's some dreaming!

Wow! Talk about X-rated dreaming all night! Gees! Well.. not that I'm complaining. Heheheh. Not to go into details, but I woke up at least three times because the feeling got too intense, only to go back to sleep and have the dream continue (normally my dreams don't pick up where they leave off after waking up). Needless to say.. it was a fun night. :)

We got dinner for free after the concert. It was good...albeit salty.

The German choir concert went well. Everyone had a good time, and we sang fairly well. One point was a total crash and burn moment, but it was forgivable (I warned the audience it was a hard piece). And Dave did a fantastic job (definitely the star of the show. EVERYONE LOVED him. Which in turn gave me kudos points for inviting him. Heheheheh)
Afterward, the secretary said she was going to insist on giving me a raise. Rock. On. :) That boosted some confidence.
And everyone said the same thing: They love my energy and what I was doing with the choir, but LOVED Dave, but they didn't like the music. (To which I would inform them that I didn't pick out the music). I can't tell you how many times I had that exact same conversation. And half the time it was with the smell of wine in my face. Ha! Good ol' German choir! Good times.


Found some red spots. *eye roll* And been light headed.. which is usually a "hey..count's down" sign.

I know I keep saying this, but really... truly.. I need to work out. Oy. Va. Voy. I'd feel so much better if I was in shade. I watched "Singing in the Rain" again and wanted to take up tap dancing right then and there.. I miss it sssssooooooooooo much. I miss the magic and mystery I had back in high school and my younger years. I don't want to loose that. I think that's what makes us old... Or at least one of the things. Lack of exercise is definitely another one. Both physical and mental.

Aaannnnd bed time.

No work tomorrow and THANK GOODNESS for that!

Headache is alllmmooossst gone. The massage helped.

German choir dress rehearsal went... er... terribly is too strong, but 'not well' is quite fitting. *facepalm* We'll see how Saturday goes. Lots of lesson learning going on.... hard... lessons..... *whimper*

Enough please...

The whole day I've been as weak as a new born babe. Okay... that's exaggerating, I know... But not too far from the truth. My headache is pretty much gone, though about 1% is left. And I'm also just totally worn down and keep feeling like I have a fever...though I don't. I guess that's the Carsinosin... But really people, can we be done with this? I have SO much to do and can't afford the time to relax in my room and do nothing..which is exactly what I've been doing today (besides teaching...where I showed "Happy Feet," and will continue that tomorrow)

I had a session with Linda..which helped a bit... if anything, it just felt really good (as it always does). Tomorrow I get a massage, and Friday is NO SCHOOL. Then the concert on Saturday. Oh goodness. Is that really happening? Yikes. First concert where I'm directing a choir and not at the piano. Yes.. I'll be nervous... I think. That, or I just won't care cause of how exhausted I am. *eye roll* I'll have accompanying our guest soloist, though. Hehehe. Yay Dave! I hope everyone loves him. :)

Massive headache

Yesterday, around lunch, I started feeling funky... slight headache..and an overall 'blah' feeling. By the time I got home, it was getting worse... and around 9 or so, I puked my guts out.
Reasons? It could be any one of these or a combination thereof:
1. Didn't drink enough water
2. The Carsinosin working it's magic
3. Detoxing?....from eating flour tortillas?.... maybe....

Needless to say, I still fee like crap and my head STILL hurts... which was unexpected. Normally a good night sleep will do the trick. Bllaaahhhh. I refuse to take anything! This needs to work out of my system, whatever the cause.
Teaching won't be fun, though. I think we'll just watch a musical.

The bruise on my hand is no longer blue, but now more brownish. I found a bruise on the back of my knee though... purple.. and doesn't hurt. :P  Can I just go to sleep, and not wake up till I have platelets? Thank you.

A new feeling

Today I experienced frustration and anger like I've never experienced before. I am barely keeping these kids in line.. bbbaaarreeeelllyy. We're talking about hanging on with fingernails. My grand plan just totally backfired in my face. It was WAY WAY WAY WAY too hard for them. Total and complete disaster. And they just wouldn't shut up. I haven't screamed at them yet.. but it almost hit that point. At the end of the day, I'm frustrated with myself.. so I need to remember that.
I'd like to state for the record that currently, as of today, I hate this job. Most likely that opinion will change.. but that's where am at RIGHT now.
So then, I go to German choir, and find out no one knows anything about sound/microphones. And people are complaining about what to wear..and some people don't even get the concept of black and white and any mixture thereof.

I'm so flustered, upset, and frustrated, I have stomach acid! BLECK! Haven't had that since I started eating well.
And now I have hiccups.

This week needs to be over... and it's only Monday. *facepalm*

Aggravation

No.. not me. Well.. okay.. yes, but not what you think. :)  This is hpathy talk.
Yesterday I felt like crapolla in the morning. My neck was hurting in a very odd, uncomfortable way. Not my throat (as in, cold/flu/sick stuff) but the sides of my neck. Weird. Like.. lymph nodes maybe? It went away by the end of the day.
And then this morning, my left arm started cramping again..even worse than last time. Thankfully, it's done, cause UGH was it painful.

I actually have an idea of what to do today for 7th period! I need to write it all out.. but at least I have something! Wow what a concept! *facepalm*

Tonight is our last rehearsal before our dress rehearsal on Thursday for German choir. Oh.. boy. Dave came over yesterday to run through his songs. THANK GOODNESS he's singing, otherwise our concert would be 50 min (where they're use to at last an hour and a half). They're fantastic, beautiful pieces.... so the audience should be pleased, I hope. *fingers crossed*

Okay. Time to prep.

Re-dosed...

..the Carsinosin (in water). I couldn't help myself.. I was just feeling so overwhelmed again (thinking about teaching, coming up with something TO teach, and the concert on Saturday).

On a refreshing note, we saw Siegfried today! :D SOOOO awesome. Fastest 5 hours of my life.
Some people really hate the set, but personally, I think it's AMAZING. Yes.. it can (and has) malfunctioned, but it's soooo cool, it makes up for it in its awesomeness.
Afterward I was invited to go on a sailing trip/ dinner in the Bay, but had to refuse cause it would have meant I would be out late, and not get enough sleep due to working in the morning. *sigh* It was the right choice, at the end of the day, albeit not the fun one. :P




I smacked the back of my hand on my bed on Thursday night..... there's a bruise now, as expected. Let's see how long it takes to heal. I saw some red spots on my chest today as well. Trying not to scream with frustration.  My left forearm is cramping as I type this.... perhaps the Carsinosin? (which I dosed around...er...... 5 or so). Wow I'm just getting so tried of waiting. I got an encouraging word from Patti the other day.. so I'm trying to hold on to it. But yikes is it hard when it seems nothing is happening. Grrrrr I say. Grr.

Programs....

..are a thorn in my side.

Next year, I will NOT be responsible for putting together the program for our concert (this is German choir).. or at least, we MUST START SOONER. Ah well. This is what happens when no one knows what everyone else is doing. *faceplam*
At least it'll be done soon, and I won't have to think about it any more. Beginning to feel a tinge of overwhelmedness (oh yes.. I just invented a new word).... perhaps it's time to re-dose soon? I'd like to check my platelets too..... no red dots.. and the bruises continue to heal. It's been so long since I've had a normal count, I don't even know what it means any more. o.O

Still mini dreams.
And night sweats! UGH! The past two or three nights I've been DRENCHED with sweat. Not a fun thing. The last time this happened, I got massively sick a week later.... Hmmm..... *fingers crossed* Maybe it has something to do with my period? But that doesn't make since... at least.... I don't think it does.

Anyway! Back to this retched program booklet...