Paper...almost.... done....

..Hence why I haven't been posting... Pretty much anytime I'm on the computer is to work on this paper. Today IS the day.... then I'll post more.

Paper time!

I'm starting on my paper (right now..) and I can already feel myself getting nervous and freaking out. Good.. grief...
I've still got a ways to go with this whole nervous thing. :P

Steps in the right direction

It's only been a week since I saw my most recent doctor..and things are improving. Well.. not platelets..not yet, at any rate. But my sleeping has improved ten fold! And that's a HUGE thing. And I'm not taking things as personally as before.. I feel like I've got a little shield up in front of me.. it's not very thick, but it's something (which is definitely better than before... cause I was just letting everything get to me before).
AAANNNND I'm not as anxious/nervous about things. THAT'S fantastic for me... and quite a new experience, seeing as how I am always getting anxious about one thing or another.
The pic is my arsenal of homeopathy. The second one on the left is to help me sleep..and it is amazing. HUGE huge huge huge difference.. I was shocked and wasn't expecting such a good result, and so quickly! :D

I'm still having a hard time getting the exercise up and running (no pun intended). My last few sessions with Nick have been amazing, but if I want to improve, I have GOT to start doing things on my own.. and on a routine basis. But one step at a time, right? Emotional healing is usually the starting point for these things any way..so I'm going in the right direction. :)

Tomorrow is paper day. My goal is to finish it by Wednesday and hand it in on Thursday. I think that's a very good goal, and very doable. And it will be a glorious, sweet relief for it to be done and out of my "things to do" spot in my brain.

Okay... where did summer go? I was rockin' the natural source of vitamin D.. I'd like it back please. But I can't lie... I am LOVING the thunder and lightening!! It reminds me of the east coast. Ahhhhh. Good times, good memories. :)

New Doctor in the house and new job

Today I met with my CSTherapists husband, an MD who uses homeopathy and other such alternative medicine (though it seemed like hpathy was his main modality).
I am SO glad I set up the consult. I would MUCH rather have him as my GP than my doctor up in Auburn... no offense to her, but he actually listens!!..instead of sitting there and smiling blankly/silently at me.
So I essentially told him my life story.. starting from before I was born. Hehehe. And to make a very long story short, he definitely had a few ideas for me. The main thing we're going to focus on is more emotionally based than physically... which, funny enough, is exactly what I was thinking about just a few days ago. AND he had some things to fix my ears! FINALLY! He actually listened! :D So I've got a small arsenal of low potency remedies that I'll be taking daily now for a month or two, and we'll see what happens. I asked him why it was everyday, since I was used to the one time deal with my other remedies. He explained it was just a different approach, and works differently when it's a lower potency. Interesting. At any rate, every step I take is in the right direction.... I'll eventually get to where I need to be... Though currently, my platelet count STILL hasn't budged! BAH! 22. *HUGE eye roll*

On a totally different note:
I just got home from directing the German choir (this is a choir I used to accompany back in 2002-2006). They absolutely loved me and want me to come on board full time as the director. Rock... on. I had a blast, and it puts some nice change in my pocket. The only problem currently is they have an accompanist there already.. and I work best if I'm at the piano. It could be fine... but the only thing I'm worried about is that he won't be able to keep up with me. And it wastes SO much time having to constantly tell your accompanist where you are. They should read the directors mind (in my humble opinion).. that's their job.
So we'll see what happens next week when he's there. Hmmmm....

Softball and the sore leg...

Today was an all around awesome day. First a morning rehearsal at the Mondavi Center. Then lunch with friends. Then an fantastic wholesomely fun game of softball with 11 other orchestra peeps. I'm not half bad, if I do say so... Caught a couple fly balls... hit the ball when pitched to me! Got a chance to work on catching and throwing. Got side tackled. Slid. Good times.
Unfortunately, my right quad is now killing me..cause it was already sore from Thursday. And all the running and whatnot just aggravated it. :P Time to rest! If it wasn't so late, I'd take a hot bath.... maybe tomorrow.
The concert went well. I played well (hopefully it was balanced.... everyone was miced (that is 'mic' plus 'ed'...as in past tense... mic..as in microphone....) except for me, so I had to play out more... it felt unnaturally loud, but I'm sure it was balanced out in the audience.






Righto! Morning gig tomorrow. Time for some sleep!

Sushi?... Not so much

Super fun day hanging out with friends. Unfortunately, however, we went out for dinner...and got sushi. It tasted good whilst I ate it, but not I'm kind of blah. It wasn't raw sushi... but at any rate.. something isn't sitting so terribly well.

I'm beat. Bed time!

(Psssst... Got labs done today! My guess is my count has gone no where.. but we'll find out soon!)

GREAT day this day 4

EEEHHHH!!

I met with Nick today, and he royally kicked my butt to kingdom come! Wow what a work out! All core, legs, and cardio. (The cardio was the stairs (which is SO intense! I'll never look at any of those people who use them with scoff ever again!) and then a mile run (with LOTS of hills)). It was just what I needed to get back in the game and get pumped about getting fit. Rock.. on.

Tomorrow I'll get a CBC done! Whoo! Haven't done that in a while! I'm dead curious to see if my count's moved at all. Last time I was shocked to no end to find out they were 21 when I thought they would be at least 40. So I won't set any expectations or guess this time... even though I think they're up a bit?.. Maybe?.. Like.. 35? Oh who knows! But in exciting news: on Monday I'll establish myself with a new MD.. the husband of my CS therapist. Better watch out, Dr. Awesome.. you just might loose your spot! (We'll see!) Before my last CS session, we briefly talked about the fact that I was going to see him and she said he was really excited to see me, and already I had some ideas. HA! Gotta love a doctor who's excited to see their patients!

Long, fun day! WAY past bed time!

Wednesday..nothing much

I had that detox headache almost all day. Lame. Luckily I didn't have to do much, so I just rested the whole day... got some sun (it's getting HOT.. watch out!)... hung out with mom and Yulie... that's about it. Didn't go to the gym, nor did I enter calories...but I do know I ate well and kept it good.



I wanted to start taking a picture every day.. just for the fun of it. So here's the first... It's just my computer camera, so it's nothing special...


This is the "I'm tired" face.

Day 2 ends with an unexpected twist in the day

I'm DEAD tired so I'm going to make this short.

I had another craniosacral therapy session today. It was... beyond words. It's a bit personal, actually... we got very deep today, and worked out some major knots.. That's as much as I'm going to go into it, because..well... it was very personal. I'll just say this: WOW. MAJOR release and relief. Aaahhhhhh. I was nearly trembling afterward from so much that got worked out, and about an hour or so later started getting a detox headache (which has now thankfully subsided). Now I'm totally beat. Phew! That was some serious work. Sleep will be amazing and come quickly, I'm sure... Wow wow wow wow wow. I am SO blessed to have this woman in my life.

Wow.

And away we go with the whole healthy thing! (AKA: Day 1 of wait loss journey)

So after..oh... 9 years of trying to loose these pesky 20 pounds, I am bound and determined! The time is now, else I'll just die! *insert dramatic music*
So I'm going to post every day about it... in hopes that that will help me... the accountability to myself, I suppose.

So today is day one.
Starting stats:

• Weight: 146.2 lbs
• Waist: 31"
• Belly: 37"

I JUST gained some of that within the past few weeks... so I have a feeling some of it will come off quickly and get back to were I was.... but then from there... Oy.

My current tools: Livestrong.com and Nick the Trainer (who I see this Wednesday!).
I hope to add a few more, like:

• Fixing my bike (it needs new pedals..well.. it doesn't NEED them..I just want them to make the ride nicer)
• Going to bed and waking up the same time every day (THAT'S a challenge).
  
• Add more mental exercise as well.. like reading! (I want to work up to 2 hours everyday.... Currently... I should probably start at 30 minutes and work up to it)
• DRINK MORE WATER!
• Finish school stuff so it's no longer a mental burden
• Get more work some money isn't a mental/emotional burden AND keeps me doing things

Okay... let's see if that happens! :)

Tomorrow is a new day! Always! :D

Okay. SO!.. Tomorrow.. Yeah. We start again.
A friend of mine just posted on facebook a before and after photo of himself. He lost 80 lbs in 5 months. *Forehead slap* Puts me to shame. I've got 20 lbs to loose.. and haven't lost ANY. It needs to go! For more than one reason...which are: 1. I don't feel good about myself, and yes, having more muscle and less flab WILL help with some of that. 2. I don't care that everyone says "You look great!", at my height, my hip size should be no bigger than 35". NOT the case at the moment.

So tomorrow is another day, as the saying goes.

Dare the unknown...